and time is the real enemy we all must face.it's been one month since i last posted.and so much has happened since then.like a friend said,"the only way to solve the problem(s) at hand is by screwing around with time.
a friendship which i once thought of as everlasting,failed to live up to the test.in my weaker moments,i wonder if it was my fault,or simply the result of distance.did we just move on in our life,without any of us realising it until push came to shove?but by then it was too late.how ironic it is that u once told me something along the lines of "the best friends are those that never drift apart".i tried many ways to pull u back,but the harder i pull,the harder u push.i'm simply exhausted.perhaps it would be better if we just let things remain status quo.
i made a promise to a super close friend of mine that i would top the cohort.i will and i must.they say that clarity only comes when a man is forced to sink or swim.i must live.for all my friends,my family,and for you.for you,i fight and live.you gave me strength and courage to fight,like how Rena gave Daigo the strength to "Take Him Higher".
and i decided that i won't put any more colours from now on.simple,is sometimes best.
Thought Of The Day:Life is too short for regrets.i loved you as a friend,and i love you still.but i seemed to have traded our friendship for something else that will make me smile.i'm no longer close to you,that i'm sure.but are we still friends?i just want to forget everything.perhaps status quo isn't that good after all.it might be better if *DELETE* *DELETE* *DELETE*
Tag Replies: EOYX-haha yeah thats why i stopped.haha true la.too much other stuff ma :P ya should be gng back la.tentative though whimsy-thanks (: haha it is exciting.its peaking to a climax :D fA-okok i get it :D Ed'ika-hahah thanks :D lol scally u memorised it all :P done :D cwk-haha i think so too :D yes,agreed that its in the air weijie-done (: jake-not really :P Jin'ika-i can always update u this fri.cause we hardly talk nowadays ma.we all busy with our own stuff (: haha done yj-ahaha yeah i think so :D i think u know who this post refering to rite?haiz,do u think i should forget that friendship? ptq-nope Jas'ika-hi sista :D not really la.i changed alot ler :D not AFK la.is i got too much other stuff to do ma ): seems that if i dun help,nothing gets done at all.luckily i have some super gd frens who are always there,or i would have quit sch alrdy.
Due to the overwhelming response,i've decided to make this into a debate to let guys and girls gain insight into each others' lives.just comment on the tagboard(and state which number u are referring to) and i'll insert them here when i'm updating.
CAUTION:WHILE YOU MAY DISAGREE WITH SOMEONE,FLAMING IS NOT ALLOWED.
ROUND ZERO is about to start!READY?LET THE GAME BEGIN!just fyi jingqi,i dont care.i gonna pretend she heavier to make myself feel better LOL.and i not ticko F5)
38 things about guys-Original,Jingqi's comments,my comments(tag comments inserted in brackets eg CH-blahblah)
1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try.Idk, but i think it applies to girls too.to say,i agree with this alot.been through this,done that.guys WILL give up.its just a matter of WHEN,NOT IF.
2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. HAHA no wonder someone keeps on dreaming.it depends,actually.who we dream about doesn't guarantee that we love them.cause in my dreams,i meet many guys and about 3 guys.and no,i'm not gay.
3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. I go crazy over anyone's smile which is nice:Dpeople who smile look nicer and more approachable.
4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him. LOL. CLOWN? we aren't clowns.we just hope that they will take notice of our existence.
5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method. Caution!guys get jealous easily.but most guys wont wait until they talk finish.we'll probably just cut them off with a "well,that's history."
6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to. Possessive, agree.that's not exactly true.we don't mind them talking to other guys PROVIDED that neither of them show interest in each other XD
7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved. well,males are humans after all.we all need emotions.
8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye. Duh. Looks is important but.that's quite true.looks don't last,only personality and character lasts.(MiNdY-the reason why people always say personality and character matters more, cos they dunt have looks to offer. deep down, its still human nature. CH-nope.go marry handsome guy who go around robbing people and killing ppl.still wan marry him?XD MiNdY-hmm. i dunno which point to refer to. but usually if u ask a guy he like wad kind of girls> they would reply: kan de shun yan jiu hao. SEE LOOKS MORE IMPT. CH-refer to my argument above (: JQ-FAKE ONE SAY NEH WATCH. anw everyone stress more on looks first one luh. Quote mindy," first we look for shuai, then see if his personality good. If bad, then look for another shuai"nobody goes for ugly one luh sister. FAKE LAH. CH-so ultimately,personality is the deciding factor,is it not? XD everyguy of cause wan pretty girls,but u also know how i kenna backstab by chiobu before.so she still is a moron)
9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out. well,what to do?guys assume too much.really.
10. Girls are guys' weaknesses. Chiobu and shuaige are my weaknessess LOLthat really depends on the girl in question.
11. Guys are very open about themselves. Walked around naked at home? HAHA quite true.the things that most guys like to keep secret are past relationships and results(unless he scored better than you).guys can be very resourceful,like me :D
12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice. well,if i need their advice,i'ld ask for it.which i almost always do.
13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. This is exactly what the movie "He's just not that into you" is trying to tell it's audience.again,it depends on the girl in question.
14. Guys love you more than you love them. NO LUH.nope,that's what every lover says.
15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot. quite true.
16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key. Agreed.yeah thats true.looks(and figures) don't show our real selves.
17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped. that depends on the guy.most guys don't even have their brains when they are with the girl they like.
18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant. GUILTY.yes,guys like to check for hidden meanings behind every gesture,every word.its in our nature.
19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl. (Waste time) well,guys are sensitive.
20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside. (Everyone's like that, this actually applies better with horoscope)that is a stereotype.i always behave and speak in an agitated manner,but inside i'm super calm and assured :D
21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that. Me too me too, i go crazy over chiobu and shuai ge easily. Serious:Dyup.
22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.' LOL isn't this feminine.look at the male's expression when he says that.if he looks depressed,let him be alone for about 10 mins.he probably wants to cry but doesnt want anyone to see it.if he's angry,stay with him and try cheering him up.
23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.HAHA so true.yeah,guys hate it when they get serious and u think they're joking.we'll really snap and then good luck to you.the most dangerous guys who are serious are those who are often laid back.HEH LIKE ME :D
24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them. Then stop.nah,its just that we stop because we think you're just brushing us off and thinking our opinion doesn't matter.
25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something. TICKO SICKO ALL APPEAR AH LOLIT DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE THINKING SICK THINGS ZZZ(JQ-when 1 guy stares at a girl, i can bet it's nothing good cause it's like a girl stares at guy. LOL. WE THINK SAME SAME LAH. CH-nope.i look at ppl all the time when i talking to them.anyway looking isnt thinking sick thoughts.how u know we not thinking "why that girl so FAT one arh?" *HINTS HINTS")
26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes. Everyone else too.guys like to show a strong front to avoid being portrayed as weak.
27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily. A G R E E D. if ur a snob,guys will give up cause we don't like girls with bad character and personality.
28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys. Er somehow yea. tickos mah. nah is just that we need to ask each other for extra opinions.not a matter of ticko-ness LOL
29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them. yup,normally the more mysterious a girl,the more guys like.guys like to solve mysteries,so there :D
30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day. no thanks.i got plenty of females frens who can tell me that.i'ld save my right nut for myself thanks :D
31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it. (HAHA typical taurus)RAHHH she made this comment for me i think.but yeah,guys are born stubborn.(JQ- NOPE SISTER, is you only. dont pull down others too. LOL MY ARRON IS NOT LIKE TT. CH-NONSENSE.males like to persevere in everything we do.thats why it can be misconstrued as stubbornness.)
32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them. HEH true:D agreed.
33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. LOL sickos not sure.cause SG girls are supposed to be conservative.
34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually. WIN. first time i heard this.
35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs. WIN AGAIN. yupps :D
36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts. This sounds so tiring.guys love massages (:(JQ-LOL MASSAGE WHERE. SICK LAH SISTER. CH-IS U SICK LA.I MEAN MASSAGE BODY.U THINK UNTIL WHERE.U THE REAL TICKO LA!)
37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. AWW touching. only sacrificed my sleep before.hmm,yup i think that it cause we want to spend as much time with you as possible to create more memories between us.
38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life. Where got so sweet one, drama meh. it depends on the time period of the breakup and whether there is another 3rd party who came in when we're feeling down.if its less than 6 months,he probably would still accept you unless there's a 3rd party,then goodluck to you.personally,i feel its not the time period that matters.rather,its the amount of hurt you gave him.if its too much,no matter what happens,he'll never turn back.trust me on this one (:
General Comments: (Ed'ika-true true! i so agree with about 90% of those. haha nice post=)) CH-HEHE THANKS :D) (EOYX-i dun agree w 19 leh, my fren does retarded ths in front of me w/o thking -.- but i agree w 21 & 23 & i th jq's rite for 26. CH-cause thats only for girls that they like.i make a fool of myself everytime,but i only dun dare to in front of ahem last time :X) (fA-Woots here after so long... I think alot of the stuff here can apply to girls as well, actually... and for 14 & 28, well, how do you know it's more than girls? You been a girl before?Extremely agree with 9,11,15,18,19,32. And if 29's true, well, that really sucks for me. Haha. CH-yup many apply to BOTH.ppl just like to say i >you.i know cause no lover will say to the other party,u love me more than i love you.hehehe mysterious girls are cool manXD) (WJ- o.o lol saw this before... haha i think most of it quite true leh... CH-hehe yup MOST of it is true.esp the one about males thinking too much XD)
well,i'm in the midst of my JCTs,but i'm still going to blog.cause i got some stuff to say.KR Blade rocks.i love the two opening songs(Blade Brave and Elements).and the show's ending is super touching.Human Emotions > Power!!!
Blade Brave(subbed):
Elements(subbed):
Thought of the day:("38 things about guys" -sent by jingqi.Original,Jingqi's comments,my comments)
38 Things about Guys
1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try. Idk, but i think it applies to girls too. to say,i agree with this alot.been through this,done that.guys WILL give up.its just a matter of WHEN,NOT IF.
2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. HAHA no wonder someone keeps on dreaming.it depends,actually.who we dream about doesn't guarantee that we love them.cause in my dreams,i meet many guys and about 3 guys.and no,i'm not gay.
3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. I go crazy over anyone's smile which is nice:D people who smile look nicer and more approachable.
4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him. LOL. CLOWN?we aren't clowns.we just hope that they will take notice of our existence.
5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.Caution!guys get jealous easily.but most guys wont wait until they talk finish.we'll probably just cut them off with a "well,that's history."
6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to. Possessive, agree.that's not exactly true.we don't mind them talking to other guys PROVIDED that neither of them show interest in each other XD
7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved. well,males are humans after all.we all need emotions.
8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye. Duh. Looks is important but. that's quite true.looks don't last,only personality and character lasts.
9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.well,what to do?guys assume too much.really.
10. Girls are guys' weaknesses. Chiobu and shuaige are my weaknessess LOLthat really depends on the girl in question.
11. Guys are very open about themselves. Walked around naked at home? HAHAquite true.the things that most guys like to keep secret are past relationships and results(unless he scored better than you).guys can be very resourceful,like me :D
12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.well,if i need their advice,i'ld ask for it.which i almost always do.
13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. This is exactly what the movie "He's just not that into you" is trying to tell it's audience.again,it depends on the girl in question.
14. Guys love you more than you love them. NO LUH. nope,that's what every lover says.
15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot.quite true.
16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key. Agreed.yeah thats true.looks(and figures) don't show our real selves.
17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.that depends on the guy.most guys don't even have their brains when they are with the girl they like.
18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.GUILTY.yes,guys like to check for hidden meanings behind every gesture,every word.its in our nature.
19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl. (Waste time)well,guys are sensitive.
20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside. (Everyone's like that, this actually applies better with horoscope)that is a stereotype.i always behave and speak in an agitated manner,but inside i'm super calm and assured :D
21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that. Me too me too, i go crazy over chiobu and shuai ge easily. Serious:Dyup.
22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.' LOL isn't this feminine.look at the male's expression when he says that.if he looks depressed,let him be alone for about 10 mins.he probably wants to cry but doesnt want anyone to see it.if he's angry,stay with him and try cheering him up.
23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up. HAHA so true.yeah,guys hate it when they get serious and u think they're joking.we'll really snap and then good luck to you.the most dangerous guys who are serious are those who are often laid back.HEH LIKE ME :D
24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them. Then stop. nah,its just that we stop because we think you're just brushing us off and thinking our opinion doesn't matter.
25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something. TICKO SICKO ALL APPEAR AH LOLIT DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE THINKING SICK THINGS ZZZ
26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes. Everyone else too.guys like to show a strong front to avoid being portrayed as weak.
27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily. A G R E E D.if ur a snob,guys will give up cause we don't like girls with bad character and personality.
28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys. Er somehow yea. tickos mah.nah is just that we need to ask each other for extra opinions.not a matter of ticko-ness LOL
29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.yup,normally the more mysterious a girl,the more guys like.guys like to solve mysteries,so there :D
30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day. no thanks.i got plenty of females frens who can tell me that.i'ld save for right nut for myself thanks :D
31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it. (HAHA typical taurus)RAHHH she made this comment for me i think.but yeah,guys are born stubborn.
32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them. HEH true:Dagreed.
33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. LOL sickos not sure.cause SG girls are supposed to be conservative.
34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually. WIN.first time i heard this.
35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs. WIN AGAIN.yupps :D
36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts. This sounds so tiring.guys love massages (:
37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. AWW touching.only sacrificed my sleep before.hmm,yup i think that it cause we want to spend as much time with you as possible to create more memories between us.
38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life. Where got so sweet one, drama meh.it depends on the time period of the breakup and whether there is another 3rd party who came in when we're feeling down.if its less than 6 months,he probably would still accept you unless there's a 3rd party,then goodluck to you.personally,i feel its not the time period that matters.rather,its the amount of hurt you gave him.if its too much,no matter what happens,he'll never turn back.trust me on this one (:
went for flagday ystd.wah now go this kind thing also got give cert one -.-after that went with lianping and shihan to macs for study session.went for tuition after that while they both go nat library to study.heh we formed study grp alrdy (: shihan's coaching maths,i'll do chem and lp's doing econs :D i'll make sure my maths improve man :D after studying we walked to army market for dinner.heh it was damn funnaye.we went second floor to see see first,then after that we go down and we found we were in the wrong social area LOL after that went to sit next to the CC there and we all ate the 85 noodles stall.heh i love it sia (: the noodles damn good.the stall is located at the corner next to the CC,opposite BLK 17 go try go try :D
anw here's a nice song for u all.its called "If we met in a dream" by 175R.Enjoy...
there's translation and lyrics there.
Thought of the day:(from lyrics of "If we met in a dream" by 175R)
They say that being unable to convey one's feelings/ is two-thirds of life./ It makes me want to see you!/ Even if it's for only one time.../ Just tonight give me a dream of you./ I used to be a coward,but i'm sure i can say goodbye.../ If we were to meet,then what last song shall we dance to till the morning comes?/ I won't let anyone interrupt this midsummer night...
"I...was happy when you praised me.I...wanted you to smile.That's why I kept on fighting.If you aren't here,I can't fight!" "I...am going to die soon.And then,this body will turn into a Grongi too.At that moment,you must...kill me." "I can't do that!" "If you are that strong while fighting for my smile...Then if you are to fight for the world's smiles,you can become even stronger...Show me,Yuusuke."
this is going to be my new dream.fighting for the smiles of others.i've been thinking about this topic for some time,so i decided to blog about it.the post's title translates to "my dream,my world".fight for dreams.fight for those you love.
Loving isn't possessing.sometimes its better to cut loose and let them person find their own path.Roads will open,cutting through the new wind.deep in everybody's heart,there is definitely a memory that we want to redo.just remember that whenever we are lost,the strength of our feelings will guide you.
Tag replies: Jing Qi:ZZZ DUN SO MEAN LA WALAU.yeah of course not me :D Jin'ika:haha thanks :D ptq:haha no la,she didnt run (: Yu Jeen:nono its a misunderstanding LOL heh is my friend jingqi interested in her.shes les XD.i'm not linked to berlinda in any way LOL
Thought Of The Day: School's gonna start soon and i feel damn sian.Like all Ryuki stuff,the answer to the problem at hand is screwing around with time.Oh wait,don't forget Den-O too.Heh,Decade gave a hint.Apparently there are gonna be more worlds and not 10 worlds in total (: Before the song,they changed it to "Destroyer of worlds,Decade.What does that eye see as it travels through many worlds"(used to be 9 worlds instead of many) and and also in episode 21 after Decade got the K-Touch,he said there are more worlds and from the 9 worlds,there split out to 27 worlds in total.Means hopefully,we're gonna have a season with 54+ episodes :D and and there rider for 2010 is out,meet Kamen Rider Zwei!But let me say this to start,Decadriver>Mushdriver/any type of driver heh :P
went for care-rep workshop cum elections ystd.yay,i gt the ExCo post i wanted (: Project Facilitator (Motivational CARE Messages) :D i learnt plenty in ystd's workshop.the one with i identified best with was this.Event+Response=Outcome.its self-explanatory,i think.
went out with ventures'08 today.went to watch terminator salvation at plaza sing.then went bugis so hongliang can buy clothes.i realised guys shopping also as mafan as girls.then after dinner,linwei turn to shopping -.- guess who i met in bugis?lian ping LOL.shopping also.
and and i came to this decision already.TJ allows students to have 2 PDPs,rite?and im in LEOclub.so i will be allowed to go back to CCHMS Panther Scouts rite?cause Care-Rep isn't a PDP,so i only have 1 PDP.so unless Ms Rita Wong thinks that Care-Rep ExCo will take up too much of my time,i ought to be allowed back.i want to give back to the unit which has made a man out of me.so if everything goes well,i'll be back to Venturing after JCTs (:
Tag Replies: Jingqi:sister,u are a very naughty girl.hehehe.i asked hongliang how to see alrdy.LOL he said some stuff that i dun wan say here LOL. EOYX:lol my post means NO crushes at all.just eye candy.heh Jin'ika:hehe yup.life looks so much better.but i wanna find some answers.cause i keep second-guessing myself.talk to u face to face next time. Whimsy:LOL,u must tell me what is chor-hung-ish then LOL XD Ed'ika:haha thx (: yeah i miss u too!remember,i gt a bbq this yr end and ur invited (: i need talk to u soon ): i got some questions about females :O
Thought Of The Day:God Works In Strange And Mysterious Ways.I've Got The Feeling That God Didn't Let Me Into LEO ExCo To Test Me.If I Had Given Up On LEO Just Because I Didn't Get Into The ExCo,Warda Wouldn't Have Asked Me If I Wanted To Join Care-Rep ExCo.And Because I Didn't Let A Setback Destroy My Confidence,I Became A Stronger And Better Person(I Think).And My Other Feeling,I Know It Will Come True Someday.
after yesterday,i came to this conclusion.until we are mature enough for r/s,we will just end up hurting ppl,so its better not to get tangled in this yet.to one of my friends,i'll just say this to start.love isnt supposed to be such a torture.the wonderous feeling of loving and being loved is supposed to be intoxicating,to drown in it,to relish its every moment.its his loss after all.one of my friends once told me this,"no matter what happens,you still have me as a friend."and yes,i'll repeat that to you.know that wadever happened,you've already tried your best and so you shouldn't have any regrets.
after everything has passed,all the love will mutate to hate.and it is our job to purge the hate,and to forget everything.the best lessons are those bought with pain after all.why is it that people only learn to appreciate others when they are gone?but some things,once gone,will never come back.i'll end by quoting this excerpt of the poem 'Boats by Cyril Wong'.
Darling,there are just as many ways
of saying goodbye as there are ways of letting you go.The boat is narrow
like the width of my heart after impossible loss,cruel resignation;
this heart you ride in.Love,if this is how you choose to leave me,let me let you.
Tag Replies: Jin'ika:haha i mean fri nite.omg u all should have stayed,damn fun XD By:yeah i looking for nice ones EOYX:lol ya she a good artist XD Friend:haha thx.who are you?how did u find that hidden part in the post?not bad ar quite smart LOL.i gave up on her already (: with help from the poem above (:thx v much :D JINGQI:hey sister.lol her name's berlinda and no,refer to the post above.hehe Whimsy:haha ya got me wad! LOL why u no come support me ar? YJ:HEHEHE YEAHHHH MUST HAVE MUST HAVE (: I LOVE HOLIDAYS IM SLACKING EVERYDAY LOL
Thought Of The Day:Girls Create Problems That Only Other Girls Can Solve.How Ironic.
i suppose i dont have any regrets.despite what happened,i'm finally at peace with myself.sometimes all it takes is the last push that either brings the future or destroys it.diend said "If you have the motivation,i don't think anything in this world is impossible.first you have to start moving.if you move,something will start."at least now i know that future that i had always been wishing for had never existed in the first place.
took part in can! marathon run ystd (: it was greaaat la :D omg me and yujeen chionged alot leh hehe.>6km in 30mins,not bad la considering i never train :Xstayed overnite with lianping,yujeen,janice and fionna.we slept in dance studio during movie screening.at least we had those soft mattress thing used for situps to sleep on :D then today at the carnival thingy,we managed to make profits yay (: hehe at least my time there wasnt wasted.i feel real tired,cause i only slept 4 hrs ystd,unlike someone.right lianping?LOL.we had loads of stupid memories,such as dropping boxes on the roads and me walking into a pillar-.-i dont regret joining LEO at all (:
Tag Replies: Jin'ika:hahaha cause blogger got prob and posted it too fast LOL (: thx (: Whimsy:you scared what la you.i sure die liao le lor. EOYX:lol ya that sucks even more. Mindy:haha ya la you pro artist la 'kay? Yu Jeen:haha thx v much (: hehe but meinv number 1 not there LOL Nick:haha ok done (: Ashlyn:LOL what u call me you tell me?grandfather/grandmother or some other weird name...
Thought Of The Day:Like Most Of Our Problems,The Answer To The Problem At Hand Is Screwing Around With Time.Or Most People Say.But Through The Process Of Pain,Our Character And Self Will Only Be Strengthened.i tried to be ok,and tried to be normal.because i don't want you to feel guilty or anything.but for now,i need to look after myself first.and thanks yujeen,jacie and lianping for comforting me and making sure that no one else could see how torn up i was.jacie,i know you meant well,and i'm really sorry for making you feel as though you were the one who made me cry.it's just that i couldn't control my emotions at that point in time.
self-explanatory.mindy is a pro artist.hehehehehe.
I GOT IN FOR THE TAIWAN IMMERSION PROGRAMME (: hopefully h1n1 clears up asap so that it can go on (: but got one chiobu didnt make it i think.hopefully got other girls who can brighten up my life :D and theres a briefing for TJCian participants tml at 7.25.11 females and 7 males from TJ.+ ppl from VJ,HC,RJ and NJ.
Thought Of The Day:Look Back On This Day As One Of Great Joy,But Also One Of Great Sorrow.It Will Help You To Remember That,In Life,The Two Are Often Closely Linked.
its a dilemma when u dont know who you are or what you fight for.our identity is our beliefs,but what if those beliefs were somehow misguided?let me say this to start,the past week has been one of fun,relief,pain-i'll never forget this week.cause sometimes when you hold true to your dreams without trying to force them to come true,thats when they come true.i'll leave it at that.
ystd jacie,minhan,huiyan and i went to TM to watch angels&demons.it was quite nice,but they changed some parts of the plot :( before that we had ECP beach-cleaning and huiyan went to PP to eat with her classmate first.and being such nice souls,we watched the 9pm show so that she could come.jacie nearly got skinned for it LOL.movie ended at 1130+,so there was no mrt.jacie and minhan went to the bus interchange cause huiyan and i tot there was still mrt service.when we confirmed that there was no more service,huiyan was considering sitting bus with jacie and transferring to taxi or just cab home direct.she chose the first one.unfortunately (or fortunately,depending on your POV) jacie caught the last bus so huiyan had no choice but to cab home hahahahaha. me and minhan sat 28 back and discussed PW until he alighted.
today went out with ventures'08 + shaun(extra kia).hongliang,hanjie and yongzhi didnt come.yongzhi damn funnaye,call him when we buying tickets he say he still at home LOL.watched night at the musuem 2.quite funny,but it turned more to be like a mini love story.hehe.after that went to tuition.and i'm so glad la.tuition timeslot has FINALLY been changed to 4-6 :) i know it still sucks,but better than 5.30-7.30.
Thought Of Yesterday And Today: Having A Dream Is A Curse.Only By Fulfilling It Does One Become Unburdened.But At The Same Time,This Curse Gives Us The Passion And Focus To Do What We Can Do.Or So I Hear.My Dream Has Indeed Been Fulfilled.So I Don't Have Anymore Dreams For Relationships,I Think.But Even If I Do Not Have A Dream,I Can Help To Protect Others' Dreams.You,My Friend,Helped Me Fulfill My Dream.I Will Repay Your Noblesse Oblige.And Thanks For Helping Me Seek Out The Light.
finally GPP draft 1 is complete.i love my pw group,so super efficient :D ed'ika if ur reading this,i'm really sorry i cant come pick u up at the airport :( hope to see you soon 'kay :D
hehehe thanks all of you who wished me a happy birthday :D this year was great :D and MINDY THANKS VERY MUCH FOR BEING NUMBER ONE LOL :D haha gotta thank some ppl (WANJING,JACIE,EDWARD,HUIYAN,GINA,QIAOHAO,MERYL and JOSON) for those two shirts :D i love that pink colour and that smiley face hehehe,^.^ v and thanks to all of you who wished me 'kay? yay i damn happy cause i know someone else who got same birthday as me and ashvin :D shes born earlier than me for sure,cause i'm a late-night baby :D
then on 14 may,class comm told the class to come early and celebrate me and brendon's birthday(he's 14/5).its was super touching,and i still remember when yujeen eating cake,leo go smack the cake into his face.damn funny la LOL.
and and i didn't get into LEO exco :( but lets look at it this way la,the exco must have reasons for choosing them,so hopefully they are good :D and grats wanjing,jacie,yujeen,lianping,joanna for getting in :) our kao-shan(backers) lol.taiwan interview results coming out on mon/weds,wish me all the best 'kay?can't hear you (: and i'm super touched by my friends la.even though we only just met,but they scared i disappointed and came to find me after that (: one of my friend asked me something,and i think i'll do it.i'm no longer sure if i'm good or not.
Tag Replies: fA:LOL i'm always random XD EOYX:lol,no la for fun only XD kay done Whimsy:LOL it will come when i want it to :D Jin'ika:hehehehe we're all violent ppl XD Ling:LOL i gt nothing to say Ashlyn:hi,the-one-who-calls-me-strange-names. jiahang:LOL dont remind me :X and dont call me gay -.- Ed'ika:haha dont worry,mine nt good either.haha thanks :D jake:-.- lp:lol when i see ur name as lp,i wanna laugh LOL
Thought Of The Day:I Will Only Run The Paths I Believe In.I'm Disappointed Yes,But I Don't Have Any Regrets.I Figured That Since I Would Do Everything The Way I Did Before,Then I've Done My Best Already.Then I Shouldn't Have Any Regrets.Holding On To What I Believe Makes Myself Me.To Come This Far Without Compromising What I Believe,I Feel Its A Great Achievement For Me.Ultimately,Only I Get To Decide The Destination Of My Journey.
PI is finally over.i'm so pleased.5 drafts submitted for marking before the actual one.taking a well-deserved break this weekend :D but still got maths,chem and chinese to do.omgomgomg i'm so happy now :D
random pretty catchphrases:
Ore wa saisho kara (saigo made) kuraimakkusu da ze! I am, from the start (to the finish), at the climax! Omae... boku ni tsuraretemiru? Hey,won't you let me string you along? Ore no tsuyosa ni, omae ga naita. Namida wa kore de fuitoke. My strength made you cry.Wipe off your tears. Taosu kedo ii yo ne? Kotae wa kii te nai! Mind if i beat you?Your answer doesn't matter! Saisho ni itte oku. Ore wa ka-na-ri tsuyoi! Let me say this to start.I'm pretty strong!
Tag Replies: Jin'ika:hahaha BLOOD YUCKS.MINE SUMMORE LEH.SO DARK.SCARY T.T Ed'ika:hahaha YE!!!PAIN PAIN PAIN :( Donald:lol you are? Jas'ika:hahaha BIIIIIIIG :D
Thought Of The Day: If You Had A Dream That You Believed In,Then There Were Days When You Believed That It Would Come True.
ORE YOUYAKU SANJOU! after tuition ystd went out and my mum got me a crumpler bag as a birthday present.haha,i was kidding when i asked her and yet she agreed :D omg im so happy la XD
i feel damn pleased with myself today.although i wasn't hardworking today,i managed to finish reading wide sargasso sea,finish my PI draft 4 and do my chem homework.PI draft 4 took me another 4 hours :O
today morning went to pasir ris to see skin specialist.apparently the guy is quite good.and it shows in the price.cost my mum $248 la(!!! i could have bought another crumpler and still have money left over!!!).and omg i had to do blood test cause that doctor insisted.obviously,to those who know me well,u will know why i freaked out :( have to go back next sun to get test results.hopefully no need for second round.walau eh,my hand still got the injection hole la.i still think its damn big :(
Tag Replies: Jin'ika:HAHAHA GOT!!!HAHA I KNOW :D :D Ed'ika:HAHAHA YEAH! but actually is i ownself make some up one XD put "grandmother say" in front and i sound much smarter XD J'ika:EH MAID MUST NOT LIE.LATER I DEPORT U,I TELL U.WHERE GOT MAID ANYHOW WHACK YOUNG MASTER ONE. Yu Jeen:i tot that was too common,so i decided to put those nice ones up :D Nicole:THATS CAUSE IM POSSESSED XD for FLPJ :D Mindy:your eyes haven fail u yet :D its really there HAHAHAH :D EOYX:LOL ptq:HAHAH YEAH! HOW MANY PPL CAN DO THAT U TELL ME :D Jas'ika:HAHAHA OF COURSE.I LIVE TO TALK :D ur OS is oversleep XD BOSS:YUCK COSS SOUNDS LIKE A DICK LA.DUN CALL ME THAT -.-
i found out something recently.when under pressure,my other self(OS) will appear.it seems everyone got an OS too.jacie's OS is a violent one.she goes around whacking people.wanjing's OS is the super girly type,very scary.mindy's OS is SUPER scary;she suan and suan like nobody's business.huiyan's OS is the paikia persona,in addition to being EXTRA sarcastic.
and of course,me.my OS is a megalomaniac and egoistical guy.haha,i can drive alot of people nuts.cause when my OS acitvates,jacie+mindy+huiyan will also activate their OS.no wonder i am so powerful and great,like the sun in the sky(<-- see what i mean-.-)
ytsd was LEO's hustings for the next BOD.ran for the post of Personnel Director only.haha,they gave us two choices,but i think im suitable for PD only :D so we had to go up and give a speech and do a Q&A session.it went well,but i think it could have been better,although i don't know how :O and some pulled out of elections.oh man,i think among them are some who are quite good la,like warda they all.haha,hopefully i can become PD of TTT.Through Thick & Thin!
I <3 TTT <3 ME
Tag Replies: Ed'ika:haha ya!got loads to tell you!see ya soon :D Jas'ika:haha u random ar?LOL :D MISS YOU LOADS AND PUT BACK UR CBOX SO I CAN TALK RAHHH Jin'ika:haha yeah!grandmother said this :P EOYX:LOL,i dunno wad to say.we also very busy wad.we got pw and all the other stuff la. Ptq:i never!hahaha really very chim meh? XD but i look damn faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!! Royston:hi :D BY:u blind ar u?its REARING,not BREEDING.STOP THINKING OF SEX LA LOL
Thought Of The Day(Actually,Its an Ego-Fuelling Session): -Walking The Path Of Heaven,Ruler Of All! -In This World,There Is One Name You Must Know.In This World,There Is One Name You Must Remember.As Clear As The Morning Sky,The Man Who Will Outlast The Rest.CHOR HUNG. -In The Past,Present,Future And Every Other Age,There Exists One Person Who Will Stand Out From The Rest.One Who Is More Superior Than The Others.That Person Is Me.
Now You See Why Jacie Just Wants To Whack Me :D I'm Such A Lovable Rogue XD
the rising form shall never be defeated.a dark past,an unseen future.in this case,to do or not to do?
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i shall not do anything about her.for certain.i've got plenty of reasons why i wont do anything.but i think the real reason is because ... come ask me personally and i'll tell you.
i think my mental scars aren't healed yet.and i think i still have a confidence crisis in this aspect of my life.it can't be helped.i just can't think positive thoughts about such things.and oh yes,i do crave it.if not her,then who?if not now,then when?but i know this.everything will work out in the end.
Tag Replies: EOYX:haha no la my chinese still sucks.lol no lor.kills my braincells. Ling Xiang:hahaha cause u dont have LOL hahaha thanks i know i look cute LOL :D Weijie:LOL hard leh :O hahhaa LaME boy:lol ya lor. Edward:haha ya :D updated :D ptq:haha no prob la :D lol u try guess XD by:HAHAHA CAUSE I'M SMART :D you know it too right? :D Nicole:haha ya i do.lol i also dunno :P Jocelyn:Nothing la!!! we just met in the library only wad ... zzz liddat also say LOL
Thought Of The Day:"A Bond Is A Powerful Thing That Can Never Be Broken.Even When Apart,Heart And Heart Are Still Connected."
sorry for the lack of updates,folks.i was chionging my PI last week.haiz,life sure is hectic.i miss those times in sec sch when u can just relax everyday.but i chose this path,so i'll run the roads i believe in.
as u might or might have noticed,the blog song has been changed.the lyrics are so meaningful.yes,i want to meet my true self.the catchphrase for decade is meaningful too."Destroy Everything!Connect Everything!".i think i know what it means,but its up to our own interpretations.thus,i will not post my view of its meaning.
i just want everything to be like before.no politics,no nothing.and here i was thinking that growing is great.the more you grow,the more you know.i dont want much.just a shot at redemption.and its in the darkest places where people are forced to sink that swim that redemption can be found.i need to find out what i really stand for before i can decide if i really want to do this.there's no point being undecided.but there's no problem.unlike some,i already know who i can depend on.i know they are there,waiting below to catch me if i fall.we make new friends and often forget the old ones.but i can say that real friends never drift apart.to my dear friends who will never forget,and who are always there for me,i just want to say thank you.i love you all :D
Tag Replies: {At least i know who's watching my back XD thanks darlings :)} EOYX:hahahaah :D but my english standard is dropping.cause i talk alot more often in chinese >.<> LaME boy:lol ya.i just finished pw PI on thurs and i gonna start preparing to do my GPP which is due like next thurs?!?! Ed'ika:hahaha i want to say that its cause i look like a cute guy with this hair,but thats not true :O no la,i decided to try something new AHAHAH.u ought to see gina,jacie and huiyan's expression that day.gina saw me and immediately started laughing and she didnt stop-.-jacie even worse.see already then tell other ppl who know me about my new look.and it was in econs LECTURE somemore -.- she point and laugh and point and laugh but she say look cute :D i promise to be nice to her HAHAHAHA Dingyi:lol ya.but u went home already XD.lucky i didnt get wet :P Royston: hello!!! :D cwk:hahaha thanks :D most ppl say its chim LOL Gina:stupid yellow penguin rahhh!!!u very mean sia.see me in sch then touch ur head for wad? yujeen:hahah RARE GUEST APPEARANCE!ahhaaha dun worry,i'm random EVERYDAY :D AHAHAHAHA Mindy:UPDATED :D I AM ALWAYS HIGH :D go ask jacie or wanjing la HAHAHAHA.lol i not really angry.i just copy huiyan only.she fake angry then she go offline and wait for me to sms an apology to her.then she will say she not angry,is just that she think is very cool to make u feel guilty-.- very mean rite she.
Thought Of The Day:Why Am I Not A Devil?I'm Just A Destroyer.Because I Destroy To Improve Things.I Don't Like It,But Some People Have To Do Our Thankless Jobs For Us.I'm A Destroyer.A Devil,After All,To Those Who Don't Like The New Changes.But As Long As I Know Its Right,I Can Live With It.
so you want to stop me?i wont let you.i've come too far to lose my nerve already.the likes of you will never prevail.i hate to tell you this,but i'm extremely "unique",as many of my frens tell me.the more you try to sink me in,the more i'll fight.many folks say that in order to sink someone,you better be in your war zone.you prepare to take a shot to kill.i'm sure you dont need me to tell you that if you fire on a person like me,you better kill me right the first time.wound me and you'll have an angry enemy who knows your position.me,i live in the zone.i'm always prepared,even when i'm not.so its all come down to this,hasn't it?you against me.we'll see who catches whom off guard first.you don't need weapons to fight.sometimes,all you need is your mind.and i love playing mind-games,where i fiddle with your mind.you took a shot at me and it missed.so i'll return the favour.no more chances,this is where it ends.an indication of how high i feel the stakes are.i'm a survivor,like my brothers and sisters.lets play on.
just felt like ranting.i dont take kindly to attempts to obstruct me.and btw, TJ-cum-Xcchms ppl,we're going back on weds to get the cert after contact!yeah,so lets meet inside wherever we will be having contact at.if contact is cancelled,meet at parade square.if its raining,go to canteen instead of parade square.
Tag Replies,and thanks for being dedicated to my blog :D Weijie:means feel in the blanksXD JAS'IKA:I MISS YOU :(NEVERMIND WE'LL HAVE DINNER THIS WEDS OK SISTER? :Dhaha i cant be ur soulfren cause im already ur bro XD LETS TALK MORE NEXT TIME KAY! XD EOYX:haha grats:)lol means my standard of posting is getting lousier le.people not supposed to understand unless i tell them the full picture.XD ED'IKA:HAHAHAH DID U LIKE MY NEW HAIRSTYLE?:D HAHA I UPDATED ALREADY :D Qiaohao:hahaha thanks :D wait,its a compliment rite? XD Mindy:ahahaha stupid monkey :D eh video conference next time leh.we show each other our hair XD ptq:haha thanks:Dno,cause i cant vid conference with WLM2009.and the functions change abit i think :O
Thought Of The Day:A Loner Makes A Good Warrior,But It Won't Make A Good Soldier.Getting Attached Is The Only Way.If You Aren't Allowed To Love Someone Beyond An Ideal,You Probably Don't Know Much About Love.Why Deny The Greatest Influence For Good Mankind Has Ever Known?Love,For Friends,For Family,For Myself,For You,Will Help Make Me Stronger And More Determined To Push On.
bought my lappy ystd liao ler :D hp TouchSmart tx2-1009AU :Dthats like the only good thing that happened this week.all my tests are crap,and i find i no longer have to motivation to work as hard as i would during Os.haha,perhaps huiyan is right la...but i dunwan to do that leh... :(
and btw,dun EVER download MSN Windows Live Messenger 2009!!!The thing is screwed!!!you cant use webcam and microphone!!!!!!!!i bloody hell hate it.and i dunno how to remove the application and where to get the old version.anyone knows? T.T
but i think that no matter what happens in the end,its what we do under pressure that truly defines who we are.as i am a super-student(YAY!),i will excel beyond my expected limits,and be the only one left standing when all the cowards have chosen to do the easy thing and die.
Thought Of The Day: And You,My *****,There On That Sad Height, Curse,Bless,Me Now With Your Fierce Tears,I Pray. Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night. Rage,Rage Against The Dying Of The Light.
-Do Not Go Gentle Into The Good Night (Dylan Thomas)
what would happen if i were to change to ice-coldness?i care too much,and when i care,i'll move mountains.isnt fire always good?much as i see all the options before me,i think that fire is still the most dangerous,and therefore most beautiful.if i were to just ignore everyone,i wouldnt be myself.fire,then.i'll fight with fire.
i was 7 years old when they first taught me what it meant to be fire.no matter the danger and hardship,no matter how hurt i am,i will fight on.the strength to survive must come from your heart.and i know where my heart is.it's with you still.i would never blame you for taking it,but all i will do for now is to watch you.all you have to know is that you're never alone,cause i'm in your friends,and i've told them to take care of you.i love you,and that primal feeling causes me to lose track of everything.i can't control my emotions,but i can live with myself,most days at least.
Thought Of The Day:A Wise Friend Once Told Me That A Girl Who Asks You To Change For Her Isn't Worth Changing For.I Believe The Time Has Come When I Can No Longer Cut Myself Any More Slack.
Tag Replies: Edward:HAHAHA,this is not really chim one.the real chim ones talk in LATIN!!!OMG XDand thanks for letting me look at cbs.HAHAHA!!LIFE IS GREAT!! Serene:WALAU DONT CALL ME THAT! lol hahaaha thanks! EOYX:lol of course u cant since u dont have the full picture wad. Weijie:WEDGIE!!!hahaha i tot u loved lit??LOL Eileen:HI FAT FREN!lol ok i try my best! XDhahahaha whee i'm high! LaME boy:woah waoh ziyi relax!!hahahah ya i love lit.u go read the poem "love without sex".XD very funny Wanjing:XD and i didnt change ok!!i'm still me! :D by:HHAHAHAH THANKS!huiyan la,give me so hard the topic!!grrr Ling:HAHAHA THANKS!lol no la,my lit is deproving nowadays!OMG HOW???yup take care too!next time i free i write one about dogs then XD
