Wednesday, August 27, 2008

If Only I Could Choose
i would tell you things that i wanted you to know.
i would have made sure that i am perfect.
i would have studied harder.
i would have told you how much i feel.
i would have conquered myself.
i would choose to be the best i can be,
if only i could choose.

choice the double-edged sword,
leaving behind only all those
scars and my bleeding heart.
i would have put my heart back together.
i would have run the course for you.
i would have fought on for you.
if only i could choose.

By:Yours Truly

somehow,i don't feel very happy.yeah,u probably think,"hey,ur exams are finished.go play!"well,there's more to life than games.i think i'm addicted to studying.coz when i'm bored,i take the chem text and i read it.i dont find studying boring.studying is fun.its the exams that are boring.i might deserve a break,and i might not.who am i to decide such things?

so,i leave it to my "friend",one who studies when its time,and who plays when its time.this friend even motivates me for my tests.she makes me aspire to beat the rest.she makes me wary of my own shortcomings.and she teaches me how to transcend my physical shell.after all,we are not only matter.and i find that such inspiration makes me hungry for success.every test i complete,i can do.and i will do.she is my teacher,and she is my student.because it all boils down to how far you are willing to go.it is said that life is a marathon,and not a sprint.do quitters win?hardly,if ever.and so i do my utmost,for it is all i can do,and i endure.i endure to make sure victory is mine.famous last words,but its something else to make sure i do not join that di'kutla group of people for whom those were last words.and i remember.that smile,that look.etched in my memory forever.pain to disappoint you.pain to excel.pain to achieve.pain in service of my,our,destiny.feelings forged in the trials of pain.three words,one meaning.indeed.

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