--->Honour + Courage + Dedication + Love = Fighter<---

2009-12-26T12:49:00.003+08:00

Its been very long since i last came here. So many things have happened already. I dare not give any assurances that i will be back. I have alot, and yet nothing, to say now. Belated merry christmas to all.

Time

2009-08-26T19:49:00.001+08:00

and time is the real enemy we all must face.it's been one month since i last posted.and so much has happened since then.like a friend said,"the only way to solve the problem(s) at hand is by screwing around with time.

a friendship which i once thought of as everlasting,failed to live up to the test.in my weaker moments,i wonder if it was my fault,or simply the result of distance.did we just move on in our life,without any of us realising it until push came to shove?but by then it was too late.how ironic it is that u once told me something along the lines of "the best friends are those that never drift apart".i tried many ways to pull u back,but the harder i pull,the harder u push.i'm simply exhausted.perhaps it would be better if we just let things remain status quo.

i made a promise to a super close friend of mine that i would top the cohort.i will and i must.they say that clarity only comes when a man is forced to sink or swim.i must live.for all my friends,my family,and for you.for you,i fight and live.you gave me strength and courage to fight,like how Rena gave Daigo the strength to "Take Him Higher".

and i decided that i won't put any more colours from now on.simple,is sometimes best.

Thought Of The Day:Life is too short for regrets.i loved you as a friend,and i love you still.but i seemed to have traded our friendship for something else that will make me smile.i'm no longer close to you,that i'm sure.but are we still friends?i just want to forget everything.perhaps status quo isn't that good after all.it might be better if *DELETE* *DELETE* *DELETE*

Tag Replies:
EOYX-haha yeah thats why i stopped.haha true la.too much other stuff ma :P ya should be gng back la.tentative though
whimsy-thanks (: haha it is exciting.its peaking to a climax :D
fA-okok i get it :D
Ed'ika-hahah thanks :D lol scally u memorised it all :P done :D
cwk-haha i think so too :D yes,agreed that its in the air
weijie-done (:
jake-not really :P
Jin'ika-i can always update u this fri.cause we hardly talk nowadays ma.we all busy with our own stuff (: haha done
yj-ahaha yeah i think so :D i think u know who this post refering to rite?haiz,do u think i should forget that friendship?
ptq-nope
Jas'ika-hi sista :D not really la.i changed alot ler :D not AFK la.is i got too much other stuff to do ma ): seems that if i dun help,nothing gets done at all.luckily i have some super gd frens who are always there,or i would have quit sch alrdy.

2009-07-28T22:43:00.002+08:00

i have never known true love till now...

because true love is friendship...

something that can never change...

38 Things about Guys (DEBATE-updated as we go along)

2009-07-01T17:49:00.003+08:00

Due to the overwhelming response,i've decided to make this into a debate to let guys and girls gain insight into each others' lives.just comment on the tagboard(and state which number u are referring to) and i'll insert them here when i'm updating.

CAUTION:WHILE YOU MAY DISAGREE WITH SOMEONE,FLAMING IS NOT ALLOWED.

ROUND ZERO is about to start!READY?LET THE GAME BEGIN!just fyi jingqi,i dont care.i gonna pretend she heavier to make myself feel better LOL.and i not ticko F5)

38 things about guys-Original,Jingqi's comments,my comments (tag comments inserted in brackets eg CH-blahblah)

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try. Idk, but i think it applies to girls too. to say,i agree with this alot.been through this,done that.guys WILL give up.its just a matter of WHEN,NOT IF.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. HAHA no wonder someone keeps on dreaming. it depends,actually.who we dream about doesn't guarantee that we love them.cause in my dreams,i meet many guys and about 3 guys.and no,i'm not gay.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. I go crazy over anyone's smile which is nice:D people who smile look nicer and more approachable.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him. LOL. CLOWN? we aren't clowns.we just hope that they will take notice of our existence.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method. Caution!guys get jealous easily.but most guys wont wait until they talk finish.we'll probably just cut them off with a "well,that's history."

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to. Possessive, agree. that's not exactly true.we don't mind them talking to other guys PROVIDED that neither of them show interest in each other XD

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved. well,males are humans after all.we all need emotions.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye. Duh. Looks is important but. that's quite true.looks don't last,only personality and character lasts.(MiNdY-the reason why people always say personality and character matters more, cos they dunt have looks to offer. deep down, its still human nature. CH-nope.go marry handsome guy who go around robbing people and killing ppl.still wan marry him?XD MiNdY-hmm. i dunno which point to refer to. but usually if u ask a guy he like wad kind of girls> they would reply: kan de shun yan jiu hao. SEE LOOKS MORE IMPT. CH-refer to my argument above (: JQ-FAKE ONE SAY NEH WATCH. anw everyone stress more on looks first one luh. Quote mindy," first we look for shuai, then see if his personality good. If bad, then look for another shuai"nobody goes for ugly one luh sister. FAKE LAH. CH-so ultimately,personality is the deciding factor,is it not? XD everyguy of cause wan pretty girls,but u also know how i kenna backstab by chiobu before.so she still is a moron)

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out. well,what to do?guys assume too much.really.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses. Chiobu and shuaige are my weaknessess LOL that really depends on the girl in question.

11. Guys are very open about themselves. Walked around naked at home? HAHA quite true.the things that most guys like to keep secret are past relationships and results(unless he scored better than you).guys can be very resourceful,like me :D

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice. well,if i need their advice,i'ld ask for it.which i almost always do.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. This is exactly what the movie "He's just not that into you" is trying to tell it's audience. again,it depends on the girl in question.

14. Guys love you more than you love them. NO LUH. nope,that's what every lover says.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot. quite true.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key. Agreed. yeah thats true.looks(and figures) don't show our real selves.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped. that depends on the guy.most guys don't even have their brains when they are with the girl they like.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant. GUILTY.yes,guys like to check for hidden meanings behind every gesture,every word.its in our nature.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl. (Waste time) well,guys are sensitive.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside. (Everyone's like that, this actually applies better with horoscope) that is a stereotype.i always behave and speak in an agitated manner,but inside i'm super calm and assured :D

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that. Me too me too, i go crazy over chiobu and shuai ge easily. Serious:D yup.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.' LOL isn't this feminine. look at the male's expression when he says that.if he looks depressed,let him be alone for about 10 mins.he probably wants to cry but doesnt want anyone to see it.if he's angry,stay with him and try cheering him up.

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up. HAHA so true. yeah,guys hate it when they get serious and u think they're joking.we'll really snap and then good luck to you.the most dangerous guys who are serious are those who are often laid back.HEH LIKE ME :D

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them. Then stop. nah,its just that we stop because we think you're just brushing us off and thinking our opinion doesn't matter.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something. TICKO SICKO ALL APPEAR AH LOL IT DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE THINKING SICK THINGS ZZZ(JQ-when 1 guy stares at a girl, i can bet it's nothing good cause it's like a girl stares at guy. LOL. WE THINK SAME SAME LAH. CH-nope.i look at ppl all the time when i talking to them.anyway looking isnt thinking sick thoughts.how u know we not thinking "why that girl so FAT one arh?" *HINTS HINTS")

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes. Everyone else too. guys like to show a strong front to avoid being portrayed as weak.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily. A G R E E D. if ur a snob,guys will give up cause we don't like girls with bad character and personality.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys. Er somehow yea. tickos mah. nah is just that we need to ask each other for extra opinions.not a matter of ticko-ness LOL

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them. yup,normally the more mysterious a girl,the more guys like.guys like to solve mysteries,so there :D

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day. no thanks.i got plenty of females frens who can tell me that.i'ld save my right nut for myself thanks :D

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it. (HAHA typical taurus) RAHHH she made this comment for me i think.but yeah,guys are born stubborn.(JQ- NOPE SISTER, is you only. dont pull down others too. LOL MY ARRON IS NOT LIKE TT. CH-NONSENSE.males like to persevere in everything we do.thats why it can be misconstrued as stubbornness.)

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them. HEH true:D agreed.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. LOL sickos not sure.cause SG girls are supposed to be conservative.

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually. WIN. first time i heard this.

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs. WIN AGAIN. yupps :D

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts. This sounds so tiring. guys love massages (:(JQ-LOL MASSAGE WHERE. SICK LAH SISTER. CH-IS U SICK LA.I MEAN MASSAGE BODY.U THINK UNTIL WHERE.U THE REAL TICKO LA!)

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. AWW touching. only sacrificed my sleep before.hmm,yup i think that it cause we want to spend as much time with you as possible to create more memories between us.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life. Where got so sweet one, drama meh. it depends on the time period of the breakup and whether there is another 3rd party who came in when we're feeling down.if its less than 6 months,he probably would still accept you unless there's a 3rd party,then goodluck to you.personally,i feel its not the time period that matters.rather,its the amount of hurt you gave him.if its too much,no matter what happens,he'll never turn back.trust me on this one (:

General Comments:
(Ed'ika-true true! i so agree with about 90% of those. haha nice post=)) CH-HEHE THANKS :D)
(EOYX-i dun agree w 19 leh, my fren does retarded ths in front of me w/o thking -.- but i agree w 21 & 23 & i th jq's rite for 26. CH-cause thats only for girls that they like.i make a fool of myself everytime,but i only dun dare to in front of ahem last time :X)
(fA-Woots here after so long... I think alot of the stuff here can apply to girls as well, actually... and for 14 & 28, well, how do you know it's more than girls? You been a girl before?Extremely agree with 9,11,15,18,19,32. And if 29's true, well, that really sucks for me. Haha. CH-yup many apply to BOTH.ppl just like to say i >you.i know cause no lover will say to the other party,u love me more than i love you.hehehe mysterious girls are cool manXD)
(WJ- o.o lol saw this before... haha i think most of it quite true leh... CH-hehe yup MOST of it is true.esp the one about males thinking too much XD)

Heart (Emotions and the the Suit of Deck Cards)

2009-06-30T14:39:00.005+08:00

well,i'm in the midst of my JCTs,but i'm still going to blog.cause i got some stuff to say.KR Blade rocks.i love the two opening songs(Blade Brave and Elements).and the show's ending is super touching.Human Emotions > Power!!!

Blade Brave(subbed):

Elements(subbed):

Thought of the day:("38 things about guys" -sent by jingqi.Original,Jingqi's comments,my comments)

38 Things about Guys

1. Guys are more emotional than you think, if they loved you at one point, it'll take them a lot longer than you think to let you go, and it hurts every second that they try. Idk, but i think it applies to girls too. to say,i agree with this alot.been through this,done that.guys WILL give up.its just a matter of WHEN,NOT IF.

2. Guys may be flirting around all day, but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about. HAHA no wonder someone keeps on dreaming. it depends,actually.who we dream about doesn't guarantee that we love them.cause in my dreams,i meet many guys and about 3 guys.and no,i'm not gay.

3. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile. I go crazy over anyone's smile which is nice:D people who smile look nicer and more approachable.

4. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him. LOL. CLOWN? we aren't clowns.we just hope that they will take notice of our existence.

5. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method. Caution!guys get jealous easily.but most guys wont wait until they talk finish.we'll probably just cut them off with a "well,that's history."

6. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to. Possessive, agree. that's not exactly true.we don't mind them talking to other guys PROVIDED that neither of them show interest in each other XD

7. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved. well,males are humans after all.we all need emotions.

8. Guys don't care how gorgeous you are, if you're a bitch Goodbye. Duh. Looks is important but. that's quite true.looks don't last,only personality and character lasts.

9. Giving a guy a hanging message like 'You know what?!..uh...nevermind..' would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out. well,what to do?guys assume too much.really.

10. Girls are guys' weaknesses. Chiobu and shuaige are my weaknessess LOL that really depends on the girl in question.

11. Guys are very open about themselves. Walked around naked at home? HAHA quite true.the things that most guys like to keep secret are past relationships and results(unless he scored better than you).guys can be very resourceful,like me :D

12. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice. well,if i need their advice,i'ld ask for it.which i almost always do.

13. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you. This is exactly what the movie "He's just not that into you" is trying to tell it's audience. again,it depends on the girl in question.

14. Guys love you more than you love them. NO LUH. nope,that's what every lover says.

15. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. They rarely use beautiful or gorgeous. If a guy uses that, he loves you or likes you a whole hell of a lot. quite true.

16. No matter how much guys talk about butts and boobs, personality is key. Agreed. yeah thats true.looks(and figures) don't show our real selves.

17. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped. that depends on the guy.most guys don't even have their brains when they are with the girl they like.

18. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant. GUILTY.yes,guys like to check for hidden meanings behind every gesture,every word.its in our nature.

19. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl. (Waste time) well,guys are sensitive.

20. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside. (Everyone's like that, this actually applies better with horoscope) that is a stereotype.i always behave and speak in an agitated manner,but inside i'm super calm and assured :D

21. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that. Me too me too, i go crazy over chiobu and shuai ge easily. Serious:D yup.

22. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, 'Please come and listen to me.' LOL isn't this feminine. look at the male's expression when he says that.if he looks depressed,let him be alone for about 10 mins.he probably wants to cry but doesnt want anyone to see it.if he's angry,stay with him and try cheering him up.

23. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up. HAHA so true. yeah,guys hate it when they get serious and u think they're joking.we'll really snap and then good luck to you.the most dangerous guys who are serious are those who are often laid back.HEH LIKE ME :D

24. When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them. Then stop. nah,its just that we stop because we think you're just brushing us off and thinking our opinion doesn't matter.

25. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something. TICKO SICKO ALL APPEAR AH LOL IT DOESN'T MEAN WE ARE THINKING SICK THINGS ZZZ

26. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes. Everyone else too. guys like to show a strong front to avoid being portrayed as weak.

27. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily. A G R E E D. if ur a snob,guys will give up cause we don't like girls with bad character and personality.

28. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys. Er somehow yea. tickos mah. nah is just that we need to ask each other for extra opinions.not a matter of ticko-ness LOL

29. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them. yup,normally the more mysterious a girl,the more guys like.guys like to solve mysteries,so there :D

30. A guy would give his right nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day. no thanks.i got plenty of females frens who can tell me that.i'ld save for right nut for myself thanks :D

31. No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it. (HAHA typical taurus) RAHHH she made this comment for me i think.but yeah,guys are born stubborn.

32. Not all guys are jerks. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of them. HEH true:D agreed.

33. They love it when girls talk about their boobs. LOL sickos not sure.cause SG girls are supposed to be conservative.

34. When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually. WIN. first time i heard this.

35. Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs. WIN AGAIN. yupps :D

36. Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts. This sounds so tiring. guys love massages (:

37. When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible. AWW touching. only sacrificed my sleep before.hmm,yup i think that it cause we want to spend as much time with you as possible to create more memories between us.

38. Even if you dump a guy months ago and he loved you he probably still does and if he had one wish it would be you to come back into his life. Where got so sweet one, drama meh. it depends on the time period of the breakup and whether there is another 3rd party who came in when we're feeling down.if its less than 6 months,he probably would still accept you unless there's a 3rd party,then goodluck to you.personally,i feel its not the time period that matters.rather,its the amount of hurt you gave him.if its too much,no matter what happens,he'll never turn back.trust me on this one (:

If we met in a dream...

2009-06-21T17:00:00.003+08:00

went for flagday ystd.wah now go this kind thing also got give cert one -.-after that went with lianping and shihan to macs for study session.went for tuition after that while they both go nat library to study.heh we formed study grp alrdy (: shihan's coaching maths,i'll do chem and lp's doing econs :D i'll make sure my maths improve man :D after studying we walked to army market for dinner.heh it was damn funnaye.we went second floor to see see first,then after that we go down and we found we were in the wrong social area LOL after that went to sit next to the CC there and we all ate the 85 noodles stall.heh i love it sia (: the noodles damn good.the stall is located at the corner next to the CC,opposite BLK 17 go try go try :D

anw here's a nice song for u all.its called "If we met in a dream" by 175R.Enjoy...

there's translation and lyrics there.

Thought of the day:(from lyrics of "If we met in a dream" by 175R)

They say that being unable to convey one's feelings/
is two-thirds of life./
It makes me want to see you!/
Even if it's for only one time.../
Just tonight give me a dream of you./
I used to be a coward,but i'm sure i can say goodbye.../
If we were to meet,then what last song shall we dance to till the morning comes?/
I won't let anyone interrupt this midsummer night...

俺の夢,俺の世界

2009-06-18T13:36:00.002+08:00

Prologue(From KRDCD Episode 3:Kuuga's World-Transcendence):

"I...was happy when you praised me.I...wanted you to smile.That's why I kept on fighting.If you aren't here,I can't fight!"
"I...am going to die soon.And then,this body will turn into a Grongi too.At that moment,you must...kill me."
"I can't do that!"
"If you are that strong while fighting for my smile...Then if you are to fight for the world's smiles,you can become even stronger...Show me,Yuusuke."

this is going to be my new dream.fighting for the smiles of others.i've been thinking about this topic for some time,so i decided to blog about it.the post's title translates to "my dream,my world".fight for dreams.fight for those you love.

Loving isn't possessing.sometimes its better to cut loose and let them person find their own path.Roads will open,cutting through the new wind.deep in everybody's heart,there is definitely a memory that we want to redo.just remember that whenever we are lost,the strength of our feelings will guide you.

Tag replies:
Jing Qi:ZZZ DUN SO MEAN LA WALAU.yeah of course not me :D
Jin'ika:haha thanks :D
ptq:haha no la,she didnt run (:
Yu Jeen:nono its a misunderstanding LOL heh is my friend jingqi interested in her.shes les XD.i'm not linked to berlinda in any way LOL

Thought Of The Day:
School's gonna start soon and i feel damn sian.Like all Ryuki stuff,the answer to the problem at hand is screwing around with time.Oh wait,don't forget Den-O too.Heh,Decade gave a hint.Apparently there are gonna be more worlds and not 10 worlds in total (: Before the song,they changed it to "Destroyer of worlds,Decade.What does that eye see as it travels through many worlds"(used to be 9 worlds instead of many) and and also in episode 21 after Decade got the K-Touch,he said there are more worlds and from the 9 worlds,there split out to 27 worlds in total.Means hopefully,we're gonna have a season with 54+ episodes :D and and there rider for 2010 is out,meet Kamen Rider Zwei!But let me say this to start,Decadriver>Mushdriver/any type of driver heh :P

Give and Take

2009-06-09T22:16:00.002+08:00

went for care-rep workshop cum elections ystd.yay,i gt the ExCo post i wanted (: Project Facilitator (Motivational CARE Messages) :D i learnt plenty in ystd's workshop.the one with i identified best with was this.Event+Response=Outcome.its self-explanatory,i think.

went out with ventures'08 today.went to watch terminator salvation at plaza sing.then went bugis so hongliang can buy clothes.i realised guys shopping also as mafan as girls.then after dinner,linwei turn to shopping -.- guess who i met in bugis?lian ping LOL.shopping also.

and and i came to this decision already.TJ allows students to have 2 PDPs,rite?and im in LEOclub.so i will be allowed to go back to CCHMS Panther Scouts rite?cause Care-Rep isn't a PDP,so i only have 1 PDP.so unless Ms Rita Wong thinks that Care-Rep ExCo will take up too much of my time,i ought to be allowed back.i want to give back to the unit which has made a man out of me.so if everything goes well,i'll be back to Venturing after JCTs (:

Tag Replies:
Jingqi:sister,u are a very naughty girl.hehehe.i asked hongliang how to see alrdy.LOL he said some stuff that i dun wan say here LOL.
EOYX:lol my post means NO crushes at all.just eye candy.heh
Jin'ika:hehe yup.life looks so much better.but i wanna find some answers.cause i keep second-guessing myself.talk to u face to face next time.
Whimsy:LOL,u must tell me what is chor-hung-ish then LOL XD
Ed'ika:haha thx (: yeah i miss u too!remember,i gt a bbq this yr end and ur invited (: i need talk to u soon ): i got some questions about females :O

Thought Of The Day:God Works In Strange And Mysterious Ways.I've Got The Feeling That God Didn't Let Me Into LEO ExCo To Test Me.If I Had Given Up On LEO Just Because I Didn't Get Into The ExCo,Warda Wouldn't Have Asked Me If I Wanted To Join Care-Rep ExCo.And Because I Didn't Let A Setback Destroy My Confidence,I Became A Stronger And Better Person(I Think).And My Other Feeling,I Know It Will Come True Someday.

Relationships

2009-06-05T11:54:00.002+08:00

after yesterday,i came to this conclusion.until we are mature enough for r/s,we will just end up hurting ppl,so its better not to get tangled in this yet.to one of my friends,i'll just say this to start.love isnt supposed to be such a torture.the wonderous feeling of loving and being loved is supposed to be intoxicating,to drown in it,to relish its every moment.its his loss after all.one of my friends once told me this,"no matter what happens,you still have me as a friend."and yes,i'll repeat that to you.know that wadever happened,you've already tried your best and so you shouldn't have any regrets.

after everything has passed,all the love will mutate to hate.and it is our job to purge the hate,and to forget everything.the best lessons are those bought with pain after all.why is it that people only learn to appreciate others when they are gone?but some things,once gone,will never come back.i'll end by quoting this excerpt of the poem 'Boats by Cyril Wong'.

Darling,there are just as many ways

of saying goodbye as there are ways
of letting you go.The boat is narrow

like the width of my heart after
impossible loss,cruel resignation;

this heart you ride in.Love,if this is how
you choose to leave me,let me let you.

Tag Replies:
Jin'ika:haha i mean fri nite.omg u all should have stayed,damn fun XD
By:yeah i looking for nice ones
EOYX:lol ya she a good artist XD
Friend:haha thx.who are you?how did u find that hidden part in the post?not bad ar quite smart LOL.i gave up on her already (: with help from the poem above (:thx v much :D
JINGQI:hey sister.lol her name's berlinda and no,refer to the post above.hehe
Whimsy:haha ya got me wad! LOL why u no come support me ar?
YJ:HEHEHE YEAHHHH MUST HAVE MUST HAVE (: I LOVE HOLIDAYS IM SLACKING EVERYDAY LOL

Thought Of The Day:Girls Create Problems That Only Other Girls Can Solve.How Ironic.

Answer

2009-05-30T21:44:00.002+08:00

i suppose i dont have any regrets.despite what happened,i'm finally at peace with myself.sometimes all it takes is the last push that either brings the future or destroys it.diend said "If you have the motivation,i don't think anything in this world is impossible.first you have to start moving.if you move,something will start."at least now i know that future that i had always been wishing for had never existed in the first place.

took part in can! marathon run ystd (: it was greaaat la :D omg me and yujeen chionged alot leh hehe.>6km in 30mins,not bad la considering i never train :X stayed overnite with lianping,yujeen,janice and fionna.we slept in dance studio during movie screening.at least we had those soft mattress thing used for situps to sleep on :D then today at the carnival thingy,we managed to make profits yay (: hehe at least my time there wasnt wasted.i feel real tired,cause i only slept 4 hrs ystd,unlike someone.right lianping?LOL.we had loads of stupid memories,such as dropping boxes on the roads and me walking into a pillar-.-i dont regret joining LEO at all (:

Tag Replies:
Jin'ika:hahaha cause blogger got prob and posted it too fast LOL (: thx (:
Whimsy:you scared what la you.i sure die liao le lor.
EOYX:lol ya that sucks even more.
Mindy:haha ya la you pro artist la 'kay?
Yu Jeen:haha thx v much (: hehe but meinv number 1 not there LOL
Nick:haha ok done (:
Ashlyn:LOL what u call me you tell me?grandfather/grandmother or some other weird name...

Thought Of The Day:Like Most Of Our Problems,The Answer To The Problem At Hand Is Screwing Around With Time.Or Most People Say.But Through The Process Of Pain,Our Character And Self Will Only Be Strengthened.i tried to be ok,and tried to be normal.because i don't want you to feel guilty or anything.but for now,i need to look after myself first.and thanks yujeen,jacie and lianping for comforting me and making sure that no one else could see how torn up i was.jacie,i know you meant well,and i'm really sorry for making you feel as though you were the one who made me cry.it's just that i couldn't control my emotions at that point in time.

Picture

2009-05-26T19:46:00.003+08:00

self-explanatory.mindy is a pro artist.hehehehehe.

I GOT IN FOR THE TAIWAN IMMERSION PROGRAMME (: hopefully h1n1 clears up asap so that it can go on (: but got one chiobu didnt make it i think.hopefully got other girls who can brighten up my life :D and theres a briefing for TJCian participants tml at 7.25.11 females and 7 males from TJ.+ ppl from VJ,HC,RJ and NJ.

Thought Of The Day:Look Back On This Day As One Of Great Joy,But Also One Of Great Sorrow.It Will Help You To Remember That,In Life,The Two Are Often Closely Linked.

Dilemma

2009-05-23T22:35:00.003+08:00

its a dilemma when u dont know who you are or what you fight for.our identity is our beliefs,but what if those beliefs were somehow misguided?let me say this to start,the past week has been one of fun,relief,pain-i'll never forget this week.cause sometimes when you hold true to your dreams without trying to force them to come true,thats when they come true.i'll leave it at that.

ystd jacie,minhan,huiyan and i went to TM to watch angels&demons.it was quite nice,but they changed some parts of the plot :( before that we had ECP beach-cleaning and huiyan went to PP to eat with her classmate first.and being such nice souls,we watched the 9pm show so that she could come.jacie nearly got skinned for it LOL.movie ended at 1130+,so there was no mrt.jacie and minhan went to the bus interchange cause huiyan and i tot there was still mrt service.when we confirmed that there was no more service,huiyan was considering sitting bus with jacie and transferring to taxi or just cab home direct.she chose the first one.unfortunately (or fortunately,depending on your POV) jacie caught the last bus so huiyan had no choice but to cab home hahahahaha. me and minhan sat 28 back and discussed PW until he alighted.

today went out with ventures'08 + shaun(extra kia).hongliang,hanjie and yongzhi didnt come.yongzhi damn funnaye,call him when we buying tickets he say he still at home LOL.watched night at the musuem 2.quite funny,but it turned more to be like a mini love story.hehe.after that went to tuition.and i'm so glad la.tuition timeslot has FINALLY been changed to 4-6 :) i know it still sucks,but better than 5.30-7.30.

Thought Of Yesterday And Today:
Having A Dream Is A Curse.Only By Fulfilling It Does One Become Unburdened.But At The Same Time,This Curse Gives Us The Passion And Focus To Do What We Can Do.Or So I Hear.My Dream Has Indeed Been Fulfilled.So I Don't Have Anymore Dreams For Relationships,I Think.But Even If I Do Not Have A Dream,I Can Help To Protect Others' Dreams.You,My Friend,Helped Me Fulfill My Dream.I Will Repay Your Noblesse Oblige.And Thanks For Helping Me Seek Out The Light.

Let me say this to start

2009-05-17T11:46:00.002+08:00

finally GPP draft 1 is complete.i love my pw group,so super efficient :D ed'ika if ur reading this,i'm really sorry i cant come pick u up at the airport :( hope to see you soon 'kay :D

hehehe thanks all of you who wished me a happy birthday :D this year was great :D and MINDY THANKS VERY MUCH FOR BEING NUMBER ONE LOL :D haha gotta thank some ppl (WANJING,JACIE,EDWARD,HUIYAN,GINA,QIAOHAO,MERYL and JOSON) for those two shirts :D i love that pink colour and that smiley face hehehe,^.^ v and thanks to all of you who wished me 'kay? yay i damn happy cause i know someone else who got same birthday as me and ashvin :D shes born earlier than me for sure,cause i'm a late-night baby :D

then on 14 may,class comm told the class to come early and celebrate me and brendon's birthday(he's 14/5).its was super touching,and i still remember when yujeen eating cake,leo go smack the cake into his face.damn funny la LOL.

and and i didn't get into LEO exco :( but lets look at it this way la,the exco must have reasons for choosing them,so hopefully they are good :D and grats wanjing,jacie,yujeen,lianping,joanna for getting in :) our kao-shan(backers) lol.taiwan interview results coming out on mon/weds,wish me all the best 'kay?can't hear you (: and i'm super touched by my friends la.even though we only just met,but they scared i disappointed and came to find me after that (: one of my friend asked me something,and i think i'll do it.i'm no longer sure if i'm good or not.

Tag Replies:
fA:LOL i'm always random XD
EOYX:lol,no la for fun only XD kay done
Whimsy:LOL it will come when i want it to :D
Jin'ika:hehehehe we're all violent ppl XD
Ling:LOL i gt nothing to say
Ashlyn:hi,the-one-who-calls-me-strange-names.
jiahang:LOL dont remind me :X and dont call me gay -.-
Ed'ika:haha dont worry,mine nt good either.haha thanks :D
jake:-.-
lp:lol when i see ur name as lp,i wanna laugh LOL

Thought Of The Day:I Will Only Run The Paths I Believe In.I'm Disappointed Yes,But I Don't Have Any Regrets.I Figured That Since I Would Do Everything The Way I Did Before,Then I've Done My Best Already.Then I Shouldn't Have Any Regrets.Holding On To What I Believe Makes Myself Me.To Come This Far Without Compromising What I Believe,I Feel Its A Great Achievement For Me.Ultimately,Only I Get To Decide The Destination Of My Journey.

Imagine

2009-05-09T17:49:00.004+08:00

PI is finally over.i'm so pleased.5 drafts submitted for marking before the actual one.taking a well-deserved break this weekend :D but still got maths,chem and chinese to do.omgomgomg i'm so happy now :D

random pretty catchphrases:

Ore wa saisho kara (saigo made) kuraimakkusu da ze!
I am, from the start (to the finish), at the climax!
Omae... boku ni tsuraretemiru?
Hey,won't you let me string you along?
Ore no tsuyosa ni, omae ga naita. Namida wa kore de fuitoke.
My strength made you cry.Wipe off your tears.
Taosu kedo ii yo ne? Kotae wa kii te nai!
Mind if i beat you?Your answer doesn't matter!
Saisho ni itte oku. Ore wa ka-na-ri tsuyoi!
Let me say this to start.I'm pretty strong!

Tag Replies:
Jin'ika:hahaha BLOOD YUCKS.MINE SUMMORE LEH.SO DARK.SCARY T.T
Ed'ika:hahaha YE!!!PAIN PAIN PAIN :(
Donald:lol you are?
Jas'ika:hahaha BIIIIIIIG :D

Thought Of The Day:
If You Had A Dream That You Believed In,Then There Were Days When You Believed That It Would Come True.

HIGH HIGH I'M HIGH

2009-05-03T21:09:00.002+08:00

ORE YOUYAKU SANJOU!
after tuition ystd went out and my mum got me a crumpler bag as a birthday present.haha,i was kidding when i asked her and yet she agreed :D omg im so happy la XD

i feel damn pleased with myself today.although i wasn't hardworking today,i managed to finish reading wide sargasso sea,finish my PI draft 4 and do my chem homework.PI draft 4 took me another 4 hours :O

today morning went to pasir ris to see skin specialist.apparently the guy is quite good.and it shows in the price.cost my mum $248 la(!!! i could have bought another crumpler and still have money left over!!!).and omg i had to do blood test cause that doctor insisted.obviously,to those who know me well,u will know why i freaked out :( have to go back next sun to get test results.hopefully no need for second round.walau eh,my hand still got the injection hole la.i still think its damn big :(

Tag Replies:
Jin'ika:HAHAHA GOT!!!HAHA I KNOW :D :D
Ed'ika:HAHAHA YEAH! but actually is i ownself make some up one XD put "grandmother say" in front and i sound much smarter XD
J'ika:EH MAID MUST NOT LIE.LATER I DEPORT U,I TELL U.WHERE GOT MAID ANYHOW WHACK YOUNG MASTER ONE.
Yu Jeen:i tot that was too common,so i decided to put those nice ones up :D
Nicole:THATS CAUSE IM POSSESSED XD for FLPJ :D
Mindy:your eyes haven fail u yet :D its really there HAHAHAH :D
EOYX:LOL
ptq:HAHAH YEAH! HOW MANY PPL CAN DO THAT U TELL ME :D
Jas'ika:HAHAHA OF COURSE.I LIVE TO TALK :D ur OS is oversleep XD
BOSS:YUCK COSS SOUNDS LIKE A DICK LA.DUN CALL ME THAT -.-

Word Of The Day:
Possessed!

走着天道，统治天下

2009-04-25T11:12:00.006+08:00

i found out something recently.when under pressure,my other self(OS) will appear.it seems everyone got an OS too.jacie's OS is a violent one.she goes around whacking people.wanjing's OS is the super girly type,very scary.mindy's OS is SUPER scary;she suan and suan like nobody's business.huiyan's OS is the paikia persona,in addition to being EXTRA sarcastic.

and of course,me.my OS is a megalomaniac and egoistical guy.haha,i can drive alot of people nuts.cause when my OS acitvates,jacie+mindy+huiyan will also activate their OS.no wonder i am so powerful and great,like the sun in the sky(<-- see what i mean-.-)

ytsd was LEO's hustings for the next BOD.ran for the post of Personnel Director only.haha,they gave us two choices,but i think im suitable for PD only :D so we had to go up and give a speech and do a Q&A session.it went well,but i think it could have been better,although i don't know how :O and some pulled out of elections.oh man,i think among them are some who are quite good la,like warda they all.haha,hopefully i can become PD of TTT.Through Thick & Thin!

I <3 TTT <3 ME

Tag Replies:
Ed'ika:haha ya!got loads to tell you!see ya soon :D
Jas'ika:haha u random ar?LOL :D MISS YOU LOADS AND PUT BACK UR CBOX SO I CAN TALK RAHHH
Jin'ika:haha yeah!grandmother said this :P
EOYX:LOL,i dunno wad to say.we also very busy wad.we got pw and all the other stuff la.
Ptq:i never!hahaha really very chim meh? XD but i look damn faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat!!!
Royston:hi :D
BY:u blind ar u?its REARING,not BREEDING.STOP THINKING OF SEX LA LOL

Thought Of The Day(Actually,Its an Ego-Fuelling Session):
-Walking The Path Of Heaven,Ruler Of All!
-In This World,There Is One Name You Must Know.In This World,There Is One Name You Must Remember.As Clear As The Morning Sky,The Man Who Will Outlast The Rest.CHOR HUNG.
-In The Past,Present,Future And Every Other Age,There Exists One Person Who Will Stand Out From The Rest.One Who Is More Superior Than The Others.That Person Is Me.

Now You See Why Jacie Just Wants To Whack Me :D I'm Such A Lovable Rogue XD

Hearts and Minds

2009-04-18T22:21:00.003+08:00

the rising form shall never be defeated.a dark past,an unseen future.in this case,to do or not to do?

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i shall not do anything about her.for certain.i've got plenty of reasons why i wont do anything.but i think the real reason is because ... come ask me personally and i'll tell you.

i think my mental scars aren't healed yet.and i think i still have a confidence crisis in this aspect of my life.it can't be helped.i just can't think positive thoughts about such things.and oh yes,i do crave it.if not her,then who?if not now,then when?but i know this.everything will work out in the end.

Tag Replies:
EOYX:haha no la my chinese still sucks.lol no lor.kills my braincells.
Ling Xiang:hahaha cause u dont have LOL hahaha thanks i know i look cute LOL :D
Weijie:LOL hard leh :O hahhaa
LaME boy:lol ya lor.
Edward:haha ya :D updated :D
ptq:haha no prob la :D lol u try guess XD
by:HAHAHA CAUSE I'M SMART :D you know it too right? :D
Nicole:haha ya i do.lol i also dunno :P
Jocelyn:Nothing la!!! we just met in the library only wad ... zzz liddat also say LOL

Thought Of The Day:"A Bond Is A Powerful Thing That Can Never Be Broken.Even When Apart,Heart And Heart Are Still Connected."

Qualifications of the ρmanθ King

2009-04-04T12:34:00.009+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates,folks.i was chionging my PI last week.haiz,life sure is hectic.i miss those times in sec sch when u can just relax everyday.but i chose this path,so i'll run the roads i believe in.

as u might or might have noticed,the blog song has been changed.the lyrics are so meaningful.yes,i want to meet my true self.the catchphrase for decade is meaningful too."Destroy Everything!Connect Everything!".i think i know what it means,but its up to our own interpretations.thus,i will not post my view of its meaning.

i just want everything to be like before.no politics,no nothing.and here i was thinking that growing is great.the more you grow,the more you know.i dont want much.just a shot at redemption.and its in the darkest places where people are forced to sink that swim that redemption can be found.i need to find out what i really stand for before i can decide if i really want to do this.there's no point being undecided.but there's no problem.unlike some,i already know who i can depend on.i know they are there,waiting below to catch me if i fall.we make new friends and often forget the old ones.but i can say that real friends never drift apart.to my dear friends who will never forget,and who are always there for me,i just want to say thank you.i love you all :D

Tag Replies: {At least i know who's watching my back XD thanks darlings :)}
EOYX:hahahaah :D but my english standard is dropping.cause i talk alot more often in chinese >.<>
LaME boy:lol ya.i just finished pw PI on thurs and i gonna start preparing to do my GPP which is due like next thurs?!?!
Ed'ika:hahaha i want to say that its cause i look like a cute guy with this hair,but thats not true :O no la,i decided to try something new AHAHAH.u ought to see gina,jacie and huiyan's expression that day.gina saw me and immediately started laughing and she didnt stop-.-jacie even worse.see already then tell other ppl who know me about my new look.and it was in econs LECTURE somemore -.- she point and laugh and point and laugh but she say look cute :D i promise to be nice to her HAHAHAHA
Dingyi:lol ya.but u went home already XD.lucky i didnt get wet :P
Royston: hello!!! :D
cwk:hahaha thanks :D most ppl say its chim LOL
Gina:stupid yellow penguin rahhh!!!u very mean sia.see me in sch then touch ur head for wad?
yujeen:hahah RARE GUEST APPEARANCE!ahhaaha dun worry,i'm random EVERYDAY :D AHAHAHAHA
Mindy:UPDATED :D I AM ALWAYS HIGH :D go ask jacie or wanjing la HAHAHAHA.lol i not really angry.i just copy huiyan only.she fake angry then she go offline and wait for me to sms an apology to her.then she will say she not angry,is just that she think is very cool to make u feel guilty-.- very mean rite she.

Thought Of The Day:Why Am I Not A Devil?I'm Just A Destroyer.Because I Destroy To Improve Things.I Don't Like It,But Some People Have To Do Our Thankless Jobs For Us.I'm A Destroyer.A Devil,After All,To Those Who Don't Like The New Changes.But As Long As I Know Its Right,I Can Live With It.

Final Ride

2009-03-23T18:37:00.002+08:00

Skip this unless you don't mind getting emo.

so you want to stop me?i wont let you.i've come too far to lose my nerve already.the likes of you will never prevail.i hate to tell you this,but i'm extremely "unique",as many of my frens tell me.the more you try to sink me in,the more i'll fight.many folks say that in order to sink someone,you better be in your war zone.you prepare to take a shot to kill.i'm sure you dont need me to tell you that if you fire on a person like me,you better kill me right the first time.wound me and you'll have an angry enemy who knows your position.me,i live in the zone.i'm always prepared,even when i'm not.so its all come down to this,hasn't it?you against me.we'll see who catches whom off guard first.you don't need weapons to fight.sometimes,all you need is your mind.and i love playing mind-games,where i fiddle with your mind.you took a shot at me and it missed.so i'll return the favour.no more chances,this is where it ends.an indication of how high i feel the stakes are.i'm a survivor,like my brothers and sisters.lets play on.

just felt like ranting.i dont take kindly to attempts to obstruct me.and btw, TJ-cum-Xcchms ppl,we're going back on weds to get the cert after contact!yeah,so lets meet inside wherever we will be having contact at.if contact is cancelled,meet at parade square.if its raining,go to canteen instead of parade square.

Tag Replies,and thanks for being dedicated to my blog :D
Weijie:means feel in the blanksXD
JAS'IKA:I MISS YOU :(NEVERMIND WE'LL HAVE DINNER THIS WEDS OK SISTER? :Dhaha i cant be ur soulfren cause im already ur bro XD LETS TALK MORE NEXT TIME KAY! XD
EOYX:haha grats:)lol means my standard of posting is getting lousier le.people not supposed to understand unless i tell them the full picture.XD
ED'IKA:HAHAHAH DID U LIKE MY NEW HAIRSTYLE?:D HAHA I UPDATED ALREADY :D
Qiaohao:hahaha thanks :D wait,its a compliment rite? XD
Mindy:ahahaha stupid monkey :D eh video conference next time leh.we show each other our hair XD
ptq:haha thanks:Dno,cause i cant vid conference with WLM2009.and the functions change abit i think :O

Thought Of The Day:A Loner Makes A Good Warrior,But It Won't Make A Good Soldier.Getting Attached Is The Only Way.If You Aren't Allowed To Love Someone Beyond An Ideal,You Probably Don't Know Much About Love.Why Deny The Greatest Influence For Good Mankind Has Ever Known?Love,For Friends,For Family,For Myself,For You,Will Help Make Me Stronger And More Determined To Push On.

It's all going wrong.

2009-03-15T12:37:00.002+08:00

bought my lappy ystd liao ler :D hp TouchSmart tx2-1009AU :Dthats like the only good thing that happened this week.all my tests are crap,and i find i no longer have to motivation to work as hard as i would during Os.haha,perhaps huiyan is right la...but i dunwan to do that leh... :(

and btw,dun EVER download MSN Windows Live Messenger 2009!!!The thing is screwed!!!you cant use webcam and microphone!!!!!!!!i bloody hell hate it.and i dunno how to remove the application and where to get the old version.anyone knows? T.T

but i think that no matter what happens in the end,its what we do under pressure that truly defines who we are.as i am a super-student(YAY!),i will excel beyond my expected limits,and be the only one left standing when all the cowards have chosen to do the easy thing and die.

Thought Of The Day:
And You,My *****,There On That Sad Height,
Curse,Bless,Me Now With Your Fierce Tears,I Pray.
Do Not Go Gentle Into That Good Night.
Rage,Rage Against The Dying Of The Light.

-Do Not Go Gentle Into The Good Night (Dylan Thomas)

Fire Heart

2009-03-07T21:59:00.002+08:00

what would happen if i were to change to ice-coldness?i care too much,and when i care,i'll move mountains.isnt fire always good?much as i see all the options before me,i think that fire is still the most dangerous,and therefore most beautiful.if i were to just ignore everyone,i wouldnt be myself.fire,then.i'll fight with fire.

i was 7 years old when they first taught me what it meant to be fire.no matter the danger and hardship,no matter how hurt i am,i will fight on.the strength to survive must come from your heart.and i know where my heart is.it's with you still.i would never blame you for taking it,but all i will do for now is to watch you.all you have to know is that you're never alone,cause i'm in your friends,and i've told them to take care of you.i love you,and that primal feeling causes me to lose track of everything.i can't control my emotions,but i can live with myself,most days at least.

Thought Of The Day:A Wise Friend Once Told Me That A Girl Who Asks You To Change For Her Isn't Worth Changing For.I Believe The Time Has Come When I Can No Longer Cut Myself Any More Slack.

Tag Replies:
Edward:HAHAHA,this is not really chim one.the real chim ones talk in LATIN!!!OMG XDand thanks for letting me look at cbs.HAHAHA!!LIFE IS GREAT!!
Serene:WALAU DONT CALL ME THAT! lol hahaaha thanks!
EOYX:lol of course u cant since u dont have the full picture wad.
Weijie:WEDGIE!!!hahaha i tot u loved lit??LOL
Eileen:HI FAT FREN!lol ok i try my best! XDhahahaha whee i'm high!
LaME boy:woah waoh ziyi relax!!hahahah ya i love lit.u go read the poem "love without sex".XD very funny
Wanjing:XD and i didnt change ok!!i'm still me! :D
by:HHAHAHAH THANKS!huiyan la,give me so hard the topic!!grrr
Ling:HAHAHA THANKS!lol no la,my lit is deproving nowadays!OMG HOW???yup take care too!next time i free i write one about dogs then XD

Bear

2009-02-27T20:59:00.002+08:00

this word summarises my whole day.Bear has two meanings:one is the big sized thing which can swipe your shebs off you if u looked at it the wrong way;the other is like holding things deep inside you.i'll talk about the big size thing which starts as a young cuddly cub later.we see people as double-faceted creatures.this is a fallacy.time reveals our true intentions and motives.and i got fooled.AGAIN.i gave alot of thought as to what to do,and i've come to the conclusion that there are different paths we must take.choices are what defines individual life.and once you step forward,you don't look back,EVER.life is too short for regrets.and now that all the cards have been laid out,i see what its all like.i wont ever be caught up in looking at the small picture that i ignore the big one.i've failed once,but it wont happen again.i want cin vhetin.

Thought Of The Day:People Look At Appearances.But Its What's Under The Armour That Counts.Verd Ori'shya Beskar'gam(A Warrior Is More Than His Armour).

as promised,here's a poem about a bear.huiyan showed me two vids of that cute cub(omg so cute sia!!!) and since i have nothing to do,i'll try my best to compose one on bears(lol she wanted this theme -.-) this time round.my first time writing nature,so dont laugh pls thanks :)

Hunter

Standing On The Slopes Of The Grassy Plains,
The Bear Lets Loose A Roar To Find A Dame.
Defending Home And Educating Cubs,
The Bear Lets Loose A Roar To Secure A Place.

In The Comfort Of His Warm And Sweet Den,
The Bear Takes A Bite Out Of A Trout And
Settles Down For His Nap.
He Didn't Know He Would End Up Being Trapped!

The Hunter Had Now Become The Hunted,
Nature's Order Flipped,Tables Are Now Turned.
Right Has Now Transformed And Changed Into Wrong.
This State Of Unfairness Would Last For How Long?

In The End,After Everything Is Fixed,
Who Else Will Bother If He Has His Legs?
Enslaved,Or Killed To Sell His Body Parts,
Is There Anyone Out There Who Still Has A Heart?

Points Of View

2009-02-24T21:09:00.003+08:00

what we have to know is that seeing and judging are two very different aspects.while these two are related by many reasons,we have to know how to tell them apart.seeing is based on what we perceive with our eyes.many things like beauty and age fall into this category.judging,on the other hand,is a form of mental reasoning.while we do have our prejudices,most judgments are often true.things like that are like love,personality,vibrancy and so on.however,appearances often deceive us.some people are just so off-the-frequency that they can't see what is happening under their very noses.thats why i trust my gut instinct.its cause your body has already analysed(unintentionally,of course!) the other person and is sending either positive or negative reactions.

gut feelings are how your emotions communicate with the logical aspect of your mind.but sometimes they are wrong.nothing's infallible in the world.and everything in the world is but an illusion.choices that are made will affect our future.choices too are illusions.how so?they depend on your point of view.and so,i turned everything upside down and i realised that the world was,is,such a great place to be in.and yes,i couldn't help but think that heaven makes fools of us all.in front of my eyes,in fact.but i was blinded to you until i tore off the veils of self-delusion and single-mindedness.

i don't know how things will work out.i don't know what we will do.i don't know anything else.the one thing i do know is,i'll love you unconditionally.after all,its a different point of view.

Thought Of The Day:Points-Of-Views Are Just Another Way Of Saying That Life Isn't A Bore.Tip The World To Another Angle And Learn To Appreciate The New Things That You See.Life Is Much Better When You Learn To Be Like Water;It's The Softest Substance On Earth,But It Can Cut Through Rocks.Flow On Forevermore.

Pre-Valentine's Day

2009-02-13T23:59:00.004+08:00

haha yesterday went back to CCHMS with other TJ ppl.about 40-50 of us.cause we had the roadrun thing later on so we go back cchms see teachers and go eat at the canteen.i missed cchms so much sia!walau,the guard didnt want to let us in.only after i called mr ahmad come down then he let us into the school-.-

then after the roadrun,we went for pre-valentine's day dinner.haha,i missed u all so much sia!jasme,wanjing,weiting,mindy,meryl,beiying,huiyan,lingxiang and i went to bedok 85 market eat!haha,i gave each of them a rose XD.are you girls and guy touched?hehe.

i was sitting same table as mindy,meryl and huiyan.then halfway through the talking we suddenly talk about our times in cchms.haha,its super hilarious.i didnt realise that i love cchms so much.haha,meryl is an opposition party la.she ask me help her find a nice place for her and her bf go out today,then when i tell her she keep on oppose me,like,i tell her boatride to pulau ubin costs $3,she tell her bf $2.and there were some embarrassing moments.rachelle tham and jasme.rahh!then we left the market at about 10.10 like that ba.

meryl,beiying,lingxiang,wanjing,weiting had to go home already,so they went home first while jas,me,mindy and huiyan went to kfc to talk.then we talk and when the kfc ppl at bedok central told us that they closing,we went outside to sit and talk.then mindy's dad came to fetch her and jasme walked home.then hy and i go mrt lor.talking about school stuff and other things makes me feel very tensed up,especially when i remember that i need to pia ONLY maths this weekend.alighted at eunos and walked home.i kept thinking about this question put to us during total defence talk."What Will You Defend?"

Photos:

TJC-ExCCHMS-Students Contingent waiting for Mr Ahmad to come "liberate" us from the guard.

L-R(FACES and names highlighted according to shirt colours=D):

WanJing,Meryl,LingXiang,Weiting,Jasme,HuiYan,BeiYing,Mindy,ChorHung

Jas and me.haha,miss you alot also!sian,in tj i so few close frens T.T

Thought Of The Day:He Who Has Nothing To Die For Also Has Nothing To Live For.

Life

2009-02-12T18:14:00.004+08:00

one thing i learnt about life can be summed up in three words:it goes on.so i've made up my mind,i chose not to run the course anymore,and i'll just leave all to fate =D.so after a few days of heart-breaking and tear-shedding,i think i know the path i have to take.so to all my dear friends who have stood by me and helped to console me at my lowest,i owe u all thanks.i would never have dared to make this choice if you all hadn't been at my side counciling me.but i don't regret.as i've said before,i had choices.unlike many others who didn't want or can't make choices.so i choose to look after my self and those whom i hold dear.i know something's coming,and i can't stop it,but at least i can look after those who depend on me.choices.i've made one.

Tag Replies:
Jacie:hey thanks very much.yeah,i'll do my best too:)
Mindy:i will.i am not her puppet to be swayed anymore.thanks for everything,min'ika.especially the advice and for not being frustrated with me when i keep grumbling.
Wanjing:haha thanks sis!yeah i know.i WILL succeed this time.
Angeline:ha ya i know.
LaME boy:haha thanks.don't worry,i know that TV is not real life.LOL
Edward:haha,now u do already.i know.thanks for the advice and for listening to me rant like a kid.haha i'll stay strong,REALLY strong!
EOYX:i know what to do now already.nah,tv stuff is never real.
Ling:yeah,colours have many means.yeah,thats the real why my poem is in grey.mourning a lost love.but mourning is mourning.i give myself 1 month to mourn,max,before i revert to normal.even though i know i'll need at least 2-3 months to heal.haha thanks very much :)
Jasme:yeah i'll see u soon.got so much to tell you.
Nancy:haha thanks:)ok i promise to try my best not to suan u anymore from now on since ur so nice to me =D

Thought Of The Day:After The Commencement Ceremony Today,I Felt Very Glad That I Ended Everything.Its A New Start And Also A New Journey.I Worked Very Hard To Be Able To Enter TJ,And Now I'm Gonna Work Even Harder To Make Myself Worthy Of TJ.Having A Clear Purpose Is A Good Thing.We Just Have To Remember Never To Forget What We Are Here For.

Letting Go

2009-02-10T16:47:00.002+08:00

so i saw some things and i've had enough.i'm done waiting.its been 2 years already.but those are just excuses.i spoke to some trusted friends and now i really know what i'm going to do.i realised now that i'm a selfish asshole.i claimed to love you,yet whatever choice u made,i never ever truly supported you.but no,i'll really let you go now.its time i started living for myself.

i thought this long and hard.i can't stop myself from being jealous.neither can i stop myself from loving you.but i can choose the extent to which i do both.so i chose.and i'll listen to lx,wj and mindy.and i will loosen my hold without avoiding you.i'll be courageous for once.i promise it,on my honour.

its a funny thing about fate.i thought that i'll be able to start afresh.unfortunately,no.i'm now stuck with you.but i won't let you factor into my decision anymore.

Thought Of The Day:

The Path Of The Lover Was Never
Meant To Be Smooth,
Neither Was It Meant To Be
A Stroll In The Park.

Love Is A Sacrifice,One Made Worthy
By The Very Fact
That We Love Each Other Dearly.
What If You Didn't Love Me Back?

All I Ever Lived For Was A Lie,
An Illusion Made Real Only In My Mind.
I Kept On Hoping We Could Be Together,
Ignoring All The Other Naysayers.
They Won This Round.
We Can't Be Together.

I Had Hoped To Touch With My Sincerity,
Melting Your Heart With My Passionate Flame.
All I Ever Succeeded In Doing Was
Scorching Off Your Outer Paint.

So Now I Can Only Bow My Head,
And Wallow In Shame And My Defeat.
You Hurt Me More Than Any Other Girl,
Perhaps That's Why I Hold You So Dear!
But The Time Has Now Passed.And I Shall
Break Free From This Battle Of 2 Years.

I Am Sorry,Not Because
We Have No Past,Present Or Future,
But Rather For The Fact That I Hurt Your Soul.
And Now I Really Will Let You Go.

Chor Hung Dedicates This Poem Titled "Unrequited Love" To That Girl Who Will Never Chance Upon This.

Orientation Night

2009-02-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

first must say this.XCION WON!next is verelda,then zandor and finally daekaron.

GLORY TO XCION!LET'S BRING THE HOUSE DOWN!SUPER SOLID!FIGHT KILL FIGHT KILL FIGHTKILLFIGHTKILL FIGHTKILL!

learnt other clan cheers today.i love verelda's automatic and zandor's "rubbish bin"XD.orientation night was fun!dancing,performances and cheering.we're addicted to estacy cheer and automatic.i'll definetely remember this night! XCION OG1 FOR THE WIN!*pictures MIGHT come next time*

Thought Of The Day:Fun Time's Over.Now It's Time To Get Down To Business.Always Begin With The End In Mind.

TJC!!

2009-02-04T19:00:00.003+08:00

got my confirmation letter yesterday.so tj called my parents and asked them if i still wanted to appeal.but i feel damn sad for leaving my frens behind:(.anyway today i went for my first orientation at TJ,haha.it was great.XCION OG1 FTW!!so i made some new friends today.lol too much cheering,my throat abit pain.dancing was ok la,better than ystd one.mass games was cool,except for the flour one.GG,i remember kahqi ask me why u whole face tio?and only his mouth kenna.woot,the flour tastes damn disgusting and the flour stuck at the top of my mouth there.haha,bought uniform today already leh.only left house tee havent get,but houses arent assigned yet,so no prob haha.ya,now i rushing through my xcion cheer sheet.luckily hazel's a nice girl and she lent me hers to photocopy.haha,so now i need learn cheers,read the tj handbook and learn how to dance "S Club" by tml.or perhaps ... lol.

got our o pack today.lol its just a shoebag with a notebook and a huge file.havent got the tie and collar pin yet.shirt distribute tml before we go suntec to have mass dance i think.lol,ok i think thats it.

Thought Of The Day:MJ And TJ Are Similar In Many Ways.But I Chose The Green Over The Blue.Whatever The Case,I'm Just Gonna Work Real Freaking Hard.

Meridian JC

2009-02-02T18:36:00.002+08:00

so you know the drill now.in MJ and waiting for appeal results from TJ.had a talk with jas.so i think i decided liao la.i thought it through already.its what we put in that matters.ya,even though jas told me that she rather i go TJ than stay in MJ for my frens,i'm starting to feel attached to MJ.its probably cause of my frens there.so now i just wish TJ faster send me a letter,then i can start to buy my stuff.i'm not a patient person and i hate waiting.anyway,by tml i will know already.thanks jas and weiting for comforting me and telling me that i should try go to a better school even though it means leaving my friends behind.what to do???we (9-2)ppl just feel its unfair that ppl raw score 10 pts can in TJ but we cant.too bad,its life.its NEVER fair.we just play our cards the way that they're dealt.

Thought Of The Day:If You Didn't Work Hard For It,You Don't Deserve It.In Life,Everything Revolves Around A Word:Diligence.If You Did Work Hard For It But Didn't Get It,Then Well,God Probably Has Other Plans For You.

Quiz from Wei Jie

2009-01-26T11:24:00.004+08:00

Firstly,HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
-Chor Hung
-Henry
-Bra o.O

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU'VE HAD:
-Cob'ika
-Rearing Cobra
-Pokelover(maple -.-)

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 33 MINUTES:
-Ate
-Bathed
-Signed On To MSN

THREE THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
-Being Sheerful
-Being Sociable
-Being A Normal Human Being

THREE THINGS YOU DISLIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
-Too Talkative
-Too Loud
-Abit Too Mugger,teehee

THREE PARTS OF YOUR ORIGINS:
-Cantonese
-Chinese
-Singaporean

THREE THINGS YOU'RE AFRAID OF:
-Silence
-Talking To Girls
-Blood,Snakes And Heights

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
-Top
-Bottom
-Spectacles

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS(need to survive):
-Food
-Water
-Sleep

THREE IMPORTANT OBJECTS(want/need):
-Computer
-Handphone
-Storybooks

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS:
-Linkin Park only,cause i listen to classical/old songs -.-

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
-Talk
-Laugh
-Play

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS AT PRESENT:
-Winter Sonata's From Beginning To End
-Winter Sonata's My Memory
-Jesse Harlin's Vode An

THREE NEW THINGS YOU WANT TO TRY IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS:
-Study For A-Levels
-Become Mature
-Keeping Quiet

THREE THINGS YOU REGRET:
-Never Mug Hard Enough For O Levels
-Selling My Scrolls Below Market Price in Maple
-Not Toughening Up My Heart

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
-Honesty
-Sincerity
-Laughter

THREE IMPORTANT THINGS YOU'RE GIVING TO THE WORLD:
-Children
-My Life
-My Skills

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE (in order):
-I've got phobias of girls now.
-I want 4 children:).
-I'm smart and handsome XD.

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
-Gutsy
-Talkative
-Funny

THREE EMOTIONAL THINGS YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX:
-Courage
-Kind
-Filial

THREE THINGS YOU JUST CAN'T DO:
-Talk Less
-Keep My Cool
-Ask A Girl Out -.-'''

THREE THINGS YOU MISS FROM YOUR PAST:
-Lost Friends
-The Old Times
-My Memories

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
-HP Touchsmart tx2-1011au Notebook PC-$2099
-Compaq Presario CQ20-108TU Notebook PC-$1499
-Any Newer Model of a Laptop

THREE REASONS WHY YOU ARE WHO YOU ARE:
-Parents
-Teachers
-Myself

THREE OF YOUR FAVOURITE HOBBIES:
-Reading
-Hogging the Computer
-Daydreaming :P

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
-Daydream!
-Grow Up
-Sleep

THREE CAREERS YOU'RE CONSIDERING:
-Criminal Litigation Lawyer
-Psychologist
-Journalist

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR HOLIDAY:
-Xi'an
-South Korea!Again!
-New Zealand

THREE CARTOON CHARACTERS:
-Sorry,i don't watch cartoons XD

THREE BOY’S NAMES:
-Brakkis
-Leorino
-Jaysius

THREE GIRL'S NAMES:
-Arlia
-Joanne =D
-Bessany

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
-Hold My Grandchildren
-Live Life To The Fullest
-Stop Death

THREE PEOPLE WHO HAVE TO TAKE THIS QUIZ (OR DIE PAINFULLY)*:Optional..
-I'm a bad person.so i'm gonna stop this quiz here.haha XD

*there's always a choice.. u can still dont do it even if it means u die... lol

Power

2009-01-24T16:31:00.003+08:00

i felt this sudden urge ... to blog.i've thought about it many times too.why is power so addictive?because you get kicks from commanding others?or is it something more?power,like all double-edged swords,can both heal and kill.more often than not,it ends killing you.it seems that all who gain power are afraid to lose it.and bit by bit,they start to rationalize all the wrong things that they do.this slow and inexorable slide to the murky depths of betrayal happens more often than we think.a sane man,lusting for power,simply uses any means to get what he wants.simply put=to him,the end justifies the means.by then,good luck to you.

however,power can also be used as an ally.wielding power for the sake of demonstrating that you have power is an act of a fool.abusing your power is a petty pleasure of sadistic fools.more often than not,letting go of your power shows others that you CAN empathise with them,CAN understand them and WILL treat them well if they deserve it.all in all,it makes you a humane leader.yes,i'm talking about meritocracy.the fault of one is not the fault of many;yet the fault of many is the fault of one.i'm talking cheem stuff here,so don't torture your braincells trying to find meaning in it.if you understand what i mean,you'll get it.

if you gave someone power,you had to make sure that you could be happy with the worst possible thing he could ever do with it.sometimes i think mandos and scouts are really similar.both talk about the essentials of survival,and also reinforce the ideology of always being prepared and having backup plans ret'lini(just in case).add that to the values of loyalty,strong self-identity,honour,clan,duty and viola!i would like to think that's who i am.its hard to imagine a place where nobody rushed to step in to end a power vacuum,and yet there is one.i'm an idealist,and i'm a realist too.yeah,mandalore is like that.its a great leveler,and a fresh start.

Thought Of The Day:There's Mando,And There's Mando.What Does That Make Me?How Do I View Myself?Most Importantly,How Do Others View Me?If They Are Aruetiise,Then They Can Shove It.If They Are Aliit,Then I Do Care.Would I Rather Be Chor Hung Or Cob'ika?I'm Still Trying To Find Out For Myself.I Won't Be Defeated By Myself,Ner Vod.

Paths

2009-01-23T22:11:00.002+08:00

when you are on diverging paths,what do you do?i met a stranger,we became friends,and now we're strangers again.how could such friendship turn so fast?were we too close in the beginning?was that why we fell apart now?i still don't know.we heard each other many times.we met each other many times.we helped each other many times.we cared about each other many times.we learnt in school that not everything fits.yet,we saw parts in each other that fit perfectly,like pieces in a puzzle.you left me floundering in the dark,unsure if everything was just a dream;something that would be burned away by the light of the sun in the morning.but i learnt my lesson.surprisingly,pain is another old friend.wherever i look,i see him walking with me.but we only truly learn our lessons with pain.violence does have a place in education.i just hope that we won't be awkward if we do meet.i really miss those times when clarity was everywhere.life seems so complicated nowadays.

Thought Of The Day:Friends Never Forgive And Forget,Because They Never Hold Grudges.

Patience

2009-01-20T16:43:00.002+08:00

some things just can't be rushed.so instead of rushing them,i'm spending my time properly.let me define "properly".it means to "do something instead of wasting my time".like mapling or gunbound or reading or watching tv.so yeah,i'm still mapling in aquila.lvl 62 ice lit wizard named Pokelover.just leveled today in fact.and i can't help but think how different life would have been if everything could just be set right.

because there is no right and wrong.there is only legal and illegal.people have to define right and wrong,truth and lies.so perhaps we have to change ourselves.is it our morals and values in the way?or is it something more?we all have to go deep within ourselves and find out.in the end,your beliefs are your own.that's why i stick to values no one can take away from me.the day we lose our war is the day we lose our values.and the first and most important value is to watch your brother's back.kar'tayl ad'meg hukaat'kama.

Thought Of The Day:I Choose To Believe That There Are More People Like Them.They Are Like Moral Compasses.The Day We Need Moral Compasses Is The Day We Lose Our Own.

JAE 2009

2009-01-16T09:57:00.002+08:00

ya just submitted my JAE form.slow,i know.many ppl say already.my choices are as follows:

1)TJC Sci
2)TJC Arts
3)MJC Sci
4)SAJC Sci
5)NYJC Sci
6)TPJC Sci
7)SRJC Sci
8)TP Psychology Studies
9)TP Law & Management
10)TP Gerontological Management Studies
11)TP Accounting & Finance
12)SP Games Design and Development

*choices colour-coded,meaning same subjects are highlighted in the same colour*

so ya,thats about it.wonder why i chose TJ Arts?that's cause *drumroll please* i'm taking a hybrid course.ya.2 Arts,2 Sci.TJ Arts allows me to choose that combo,so i put it too.damn,for other schools need to go sci then can do hybrid.haha,u see the poly choices got become gong?like no link right?choice 11 and 12 is anyhow put one.cause they sound fun.so i put that.haha,once i submit the form,i feel song liao.like a huge burden taken off.hopefully,i can go in TJ.

AFK is <3!

2009-01-14T22:13:00.006+08:00

today went to SAJC with jas'ika and jin'ika.met 4IT'08 ppl,4GR'08 ppl and other friends.haha,i roughly decided on my choices already.nothing to do now but to hope for the best la.after SA open house,we went pooling at PP.haha,pooled for an hour.i think i'm pathetic.haha.after that went to macs.lol,we sat down at there for over 2 hours(we got buy food la,duh).then we started talking about the past and our future.yes,6 years on,we gonna be sitting at the same table,same place and talking about the past.here's the table arrangement.

WJ JAS

----------
l TABLE l
----------

ED CH

we are a new group called AFK(Adopted Family Klan).it consists of 4 ppl.Ed'ika,Jin'ika,Jas'ika And Cob'ika.Yeah,6 years on,ed'ika will be right there sitting with us,chatting,bullshitting and laughing with us.its a promise.so we had heart-to-heart talk.i miss edward.rawr,i want him to come back SG now!!!!EDWARD KOHARUDDIN!WE MISS YOU!!

i miss cchms so much.so we had serious talks,ranging from relationships,to rumours and to JC life.Uni life too.haha,we so random.for more details,go jasme(http://desire--passion--lust.blogspot.com/) /wanjing(http://andlivehappilyeverafter.blogspot.com/) blog.WALAU,EDWARD I WANT LINK U ALSO ONE.WHY U NO COME??? T.T

AFK FTW!!!

2008 O Level Results

2009-01-12T18:16:00.003+08:00

haha,shocked la.woot.ok,here it goes.

ENGLISH LANGUAGE = A1

LITERATURE IN ENGLISH = A1

COMBINED HUMANITIES = A2

MATHEMATICS = A1

ADDITIONAL MATHEMATICS = A2

PHYSICS = A2

CHEMISTRY = A2

CHINESE = A2

ya so L1R5 is 9-2 = 7 points.now i don't know where i should go.temasek or meridian???knowing you sceptics out there like tsehao,i took a photo of the results slip.so ya,look if you don't believe.

so ya,now you believe me.good,i'm not a liar.ok that's all.no more mood to talk.still stunned.haha,8 distinctions.lol.

Thought Of The Day:The Impossible Is Possible.So It's Up To Us To Break Down The Barrier To Limitless Possibilities...

Winter Sonata

2009-01-07T21:05:00.006+08:00

ok,so now i'm starting to go soft.yeah,too much korean dramas.i just love them.super touching.especially winter sonata.thats why this post is dedicated to winter sonata.because its an absolutely amazing show.its about,yup you guessed it,love.and i so love the characters themselves.and i realised that love is not as easy as it sounds,or as they show it in movies.you don't suddenly fall in love with someone.as min hyung says"there is no reason for loving anyone."its a feeling that is just there.yeah,i love that serial.haha,i rushed 16 episodes (16 hrs)in 2 days.haha,4 more episodes.maybe the reason i am drawn to that show is because of the parallels.ah well,the songs are fabulous too.i love the songs.i'm posting them later in this post.if you want to view them,scroll down to the bottom of the post please.

and so i thought,perhaps we could just work something out.but u seem determined to never let me have a chance to fulfill my promises.to u,promises are a joke.but to me,promises are my bond.i don't make one if i don't intend to fulfill it.as i said in my previous post,ner vod,promises are all we are left with in the end.i honour mine.i can't believe our personalities are so different.but after talking to a good friend,we both agreed that its not worth it.i won't care anymore.because,as she says,i won't be made a liar.but sometimes this is wad happens.its not a fairytale.this is reality.you don't eat a poisoned apple and fall asleep;you eat it and you die.thats all i can say.

Tag Replies(pardon my tardiness,winter sonata beats the computer hands down):
(Angeline)haha,ya i know.but its nice to feel old.more mature.haha
(wanjing)yeah i know.i hope i cheer up soon.haha
(EOYX)haha,nah.english.
(dingyi)ee,u so bad one.mean!
(Kim Shen)scout blog.ok set.
(ptq)haha,thanks bro.but nah,i think sales is not my cup of tea.=D

Thought Of The Day:I Wanna Love You Forever,If I Got The Chance.No Regrets.I Don't Do Regrets.I Just Wish You Had Shown Your True Colours Earlier And Let Me Off All These Crap.So Yeah,Goodbye.

From Beginning To End

My Memory

Hurt

2009-01-03T22:58:00.002+08:00

growing up so fast hurt in more ways than one.it hadn't given me time to toughen up my heart.ah well,better out than in.and i'm 17 now.i didn't know what to do.i didn't know who to ask.and so i decided it was better off not knowing.the truth hurts,they say.well,one thing's for sure.they never knew how right they were.i was a rotten man.i'm not a good person;and i will never be.i hate as much as i love,and i punch as hard as i care.it doesn't change me one bit.and so i wonder if i'm getting my just deserts.but surprisingly,i don't care anymore.i have a job to do,and i'm going to do my best.i don't care what you want,i don't care what you say.in the end,one thing's for sure.when you're a warrior,your nation travelled in your heart,and your need values and morals that you can cling on to.we all betray something in the end.its what we stay true to that counts.and i will get the courage i need to wear my heart on my sleeves.

Thought Of The Day:The Two Things A Father Has A Duty To Teach His Sons Are Self-Reliance,And That He Would Give His Life For Them.I Wasn't A Good Father Until They Made One Out Of Me.Who Is "They"?Its Who I'll Make Sure I Can Continue To Help.Yes,ad'ike.I Keep My Promises.Its All We're Left With In The End.

Value

2008-12-21T17:38:00.001+08:00

its nice to feel valued for your contributions and your effort.i'll give it my all.

Obligation;My Duty And Justification

2008-12-20T23:40:00.004+08:00

yeah so today first day as a $7/hr (veteran?).stressful sia.yeah,never break any record today la.5 sets only.top sales by jolyn (8 sets),who do solo.grats.$45 bonus.got my pay cheque today.haha,now i dunno what to do with it.so i think i'll just treat my family members to dinner.ok,i think i am gonna slack tonight.instead of working from 12-5 tml(coz i got something on at night,so i leaving early),i'll start from 1pm.yeah,now its time to play computer.oh man,i miss my computer so much.i spend 30mins like that with it everyday only leh...dun talk liao.bb,off to play.maple/gunbound time.

NEW SG SALES RECORD!!

2008-12-19T22:22:00.003+08:00

NEW SALES RECORD!9 SETS SOLD!BROKE PREVIOUS RECORD SET(8) AT JURONG POINT!NEW RECORD FOR CENTURY SQUARE! =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

ROYSTON AND I ARE IMBA TEAM.

boss congradulating us both:
"U GUYS R RECORD BREAKERS! U make my heart stop. UNBELIEVABLE UNBELIEVABLE. Causeway point close at 10pm. Announcement after 10pm." and "I hv somethg 2 say 2 all of u. THANK YOU FROM D BOTTOM OF MY HEART. I hv such GOOD FORTUNE 2 work with d BEST PEOPLE I COULD POSSIBLY IMAGINE."

congrats-msg-cum-daily-report from boss:
"Hi all, 1st time all outlets close with sales n break a overall record. Pls clap. Samuel has done brilliant in marina square with 3 sets. $15 bonus 4 dis xceptional performance at marina. Jurong point, wei lee n lai seng did 7 sets! Im loss 4 words. $25 for wei lee, $15 for lai seng as additional bonus. 2day, A NEW RECORD! 9 SETS! Chor hung n royston of century square. Both these heroes get $30 each 4 THIS HEART STOPPING PERFORMANCE. Tmr onwards, chor hung is $7 per hr. Goodnite all, sleep well. Tmr,new RECORDS WILL BE SET."

oh yeah,working for a week and i got pay rise!i love sales.and something funny happened today.when i was doing "aggressive sales", one guy came up to me and offered me his namecard.he told me to call him if i wanted to look for a toy-promoter-job.woah,stunning sia.ok off to watch survivor.goodnight folks!i want to set new record tml!

Thought Of The Day:You Need Both Luck And Skill.Without One,Nothing Fits.Luck,Right Place At The Right Time.Skill,Knowing When To Push And When To Shut Up And Save Your Breath.
Result?New Record Set.Oh Yeah,A Week Into The Job And I Get A Pay Rise.Good Start.Well Begun Is Half Done.

Bonus!!!

2008-12-18T22:15:00.003+08:00

oh yeah man!!i did it today!record-breaking 7 sets SOLD @ century square kiddy palace!!aha,i'll type out my congrats-msg-cum-daily-report from boss. =D

"Hi all, Ace n Jolyn has done well at compass point. Pls clap 4 d girls team. 2nite im please 2 announce a new superstar in our team. His performance 2day is BREATHTAKING! He work alone at century square, but he has SINGLEHANDEDLY ACHIEVE a NEW RECORD 4 Century Square, 7 sets!!. Even d kiddy palace supervisor call me 2 praise him. CHOR HUNG, d company is please 2 pay an additional $30 Bonus 4 2day. Congrats. Claps."

he next sent a private msg to me.
"Chor hung, its an INCREDIBLE PERFORMANCE. keep dis up n u wil join 2 others on $7 per hr pay. This $7 per hr pay is 4 consistent performer. Chor Hung, many thanks, have a good rest"

aha,sales is addictive once you get the hang of it.and i'm not saying that cause my job description is 1/4 talking and 3/4 playing.make new friends,learn new skills,learn lessons and learn the value of a dollar.yeah man,kiddy palace ppl damn nice.aha, replied boss' last msg and got a reply.its great to feel valued.back to the topic,me toys department are most zai.amanda,carmen,royston,siqi,wah yun,"dajie",jing wen and me=BEST ok!gonna recharge for tml!i want to break my own record of 7 sets!see ya!

Thought Of The Day:A Good Employer,One Who Values His Employees,And Rewards Hard Work Is The Most Respected As Well As Most Efficient.This Is Because All His Employees Will Gladly Give Their Last Drop Of Sweat To Fufill His Aim.And The Result?New Sales Breakthrough.

Destiny 缘

2008-12-16T22:23:00.002+08:00

this is a sequel to "A Chance At Redemption".i found her.remember what i said about destiny and the Force closing a hatch and opening a viewport?yeah,its true.and thats why this post's title is destiny.let's talk about how i got her full name.its very coincidental.

it all started yesterday.royston,my colleague, has a sister studying in the same school as her.i didn't know that at first.so i asked him if he had siblings and he said yes.feeling that it is polite,i asked him for her school.so imagine my surprise when i heard that school.and so i asked for her age.then i asked him bring her yearbook today.and when i saw the yearbook,there were two girls with her name.and i realised that i was searching for the WRONG GIRL.wrong name.

so i came home and first thing i did was to go FB and Friendster to search her.and sure enough,as Ed'ika said,she had both.yeah,i found it.and now that i have found it,i don't know if i should ask her.what should i do?what is my next move?what call?i move for a vote of no confidence in my abilities.and yet when i gave up all hope of finding her,she appeared before me.and when she did,i didn't know what to do.two words before i go to bed and recharge for powersale tomorrow.i want a bonus,rawr!they are "WHAT NOW?"

Thought Of The Day 1:Yeah,Destiny Plays A Part.Without My Colleague,I Would Never Know Anything.I Owe You One,Pal.Go Jio Your Girl!I'll Tank For You This Sat!

Thought Of The Day 2:It Never Fails To Amaze Me That Some Singaporeans Are Idiots.You Talk To Them And They Ignore You.Perhaps We Are Part Of The Furniture To Them.And You Hear Us Saying "Thank You",But We Both Know That We Mean "Thanks For Nothing".And The Singaporean Mentality Is "I-Want-To-Learn-But-I-Don't-Want-To-Buy" And "Let-My-Children-Stay-Here-And-Have-Fun-And-When-I'm-Done,Let's-Go".mir'shebse.

Work!

2008-12-13T22:34:00.003+08:00

so yeah,after hearing so much nagging and other stuff,i found a job.went to interview and the boss hired me.so i'm promoting games.i'm located at century square Kiddy Palace (i am not an employee of KP,just happens i'm assigned there.) so the game i'm promoting is called Legends Of The Raven.go to www.realgamer.sg to find out more details about the game.working from 1-9 everyday.paired up with royston.he's damn imba.he taught me alot.so thats the summary.all are welcome to find me and buy the stuff.take note:I AM BASED AT CS UNTIL MONDAY.FOR THE REST OF THE MONTH,I MAY BE SHIFTED ELSEWHERE.FOR MORE INFO SMS ME.

Thought Of The Day:All I Want For Christmas Is To Cure The World Of Assholes And Dao-ers.You Get My Drift.

A Chance At Redemption

2008-12-07T22:36:00.002+08:00

and so i have a new life story.i couldn't believe how blind i was before.all that garbage about faithfulness,it just doesn't ring.and i believe i am a changed person.not like before,and i don't know what is happening to me.or maybe i do,but i just don't want to believe it because it makes me appear to be a monster.and i know all too well that monsters are not only mutants and demons.

i was wrong.i should not have even thought about it.but the deed was done.and for some reason,even though people tell me i am being silly,i still feel guilty.i could not even fulfil those simple requirements.and i feel sorry for myself.that is why i don't dare to ask you out.that is why i won't.that is why i shall simply stay at home or try find a job.that is why i have taken up to reading on hypnosis in order to influence my thoughts away from these dark path of self-absorption and self-pity.to veer of course,i shall just say that hypnosis is simply relaxing.it helps me to focus.

but i have not fallen that deeply yet.i am not trying to rationalise what i have done,but simply to state why and how.the first time i met her,i thought that she was just a flowerpot,and that she was merely like other girls;albeit an extremely attractive one.but even through my self-imposed aloofness,i still had that feeling that i knew her once.and thats weird.she seemed so ...familiar.and the next few days,she demonstrated her filial piety.and there's no more secure way to a man's heart than the knowledge that a girl would go out all for a stranger,to someone whom she did not know.her dedication and help shown towards my grandparents told me,more strongly than any words could,that she was a kind soul.looking after our elders is not an easy task.i know.i pushed my grandfather up the mountain on a wheelchair.being old,he is not so fit to be able to walk so much.my dad,sister and mum had to take turns to push my grandmother.and all those help she rendered (not pushing my grandparents in a wheelchair la,aiyo.i meant her looking after them when i was at the loo/running errands for them.) struck a deep chord within me.i could not help but re-evaluate this new information.and i begin to accord her some measure of respect.and of how much she loved her younger sister and brother.and her courage.i never met a girl like her.on the ski slopes of yongpyong,she asked me for my name and school.never in 16 years have i met a girl,so perfectly at ease with assisting others,a shining beacon of courage and goodwill.she,another 16 year old,and yet so grown up.an intelligent girl,with perfect manners and behaviour.imagine that.

and then came that fateful decision.i was fretting over whether to get her msn or not.after this holiday,we would probably never see each other again.and then i decided.on hindsight,i admit i was rash,impractical and for all purposes,complacent.i decided that if we were fated,then she would give me her msn.if we were destined for more,then surely there would be another way!but no.heaven does not play that way.destiny is future,fate,marriage and many other things.BUT the one thing destiny is not,is that it does not do home visits.and without getting her contact,we parted.why?because i was a cowardly,indecisive fool.and fools are never rewarded.and so now,my heart pines for her.even though i know that it is all too late.but i post this in order to remind myself,about how life could have been,if i had dared to write a simple sentence on a piece of paper.or if i had just given her my email or asked for hers.

and so,dear J,it seems that our paths will not cross again.forget the shabla Force opening a hatch when it closes a viewport.just remember that because i started judging you by your appearance as a flowervase,i wreaked this havoc.though you may never read this post,i hope that somewhere,you will know.know that this coward regrets judging you.and know that he is sorry.

With Love,
Henry

Thought Of The Day:All That Glitters Is Not Gold,Often Have You Heard That Told.But While Its Exterior Is A Shiny Yellow,There Is Always A Possibility That It IS True Gold.And Faces And Appearances Makes Us All Unobjective.Never Judge A Book By Its Cover.You May Have To Judge It On Its Content Page Instead.

South Korea 23 Nov-30 Nov

2008-12-01T21:19:00.023+08:00

returned yesterday night at around 9.30.south korea was super,duper fun.i'm gonna miss s korea.singapore seems rather mild after that.and i am so bored right now.SOUTH KOREA=LAND OF THE MORNING CALM/LAND OF SNOW AND SCENERY/LAND OF CHIO BUS(chio until u see ur eyeballs can drop off).

now on to a brief summary of the trip.don't count on it being too long.

anyway,first day we went *refers to itinary which was not looked at during the entire trip* everland theme park and then to jeju island.and the famous mysterious road.bus goes UP a slope with the engine off.imba.then we went to dragon head rock.truly,this entire holiday is one of great scenery and beauty.our tour guide micheal said we were a super lucky bunch,with the snow field and superb weather.second day went to songan sunrise peaks,folk village,chonjiyon waterfall and teddy museum.the bear museum has a bear that costs a few million US.third day went to lotte world and on to yongpyong resort.went skiing.as usual,i learnt how to because it looked fun.and i learnt it in 10 minutes.much like rollerblading,except ur blades are larger than usual,if u get my meaning.fourth day went up to the mountain peak of yongpyong.it was SNOWING.snow was up to nearly my knees.and we threw snowballs.fun.then we went mount sorak.went to korea's equivalent of wildwildwet.the waterpia.it has a hot spring.family area have to wear swimming costume and swimming cap.so i stayed there for a while before donning my birthday suit to go into the hot spring.the outdoor spring has NO view,unless u call staring at a wall a view.fifth day went to nami island and watched the jump show.nami island is a famous spot of winter sonata.and the jump show can be described in a word.EXCELLENT.sixth day saw us at nam sangol hanok village,blue house and namdaemum.ok thats the summary done.now pictures.

dragon head rock in the background.L-R:mum,sis,me

folk village.

teddy bear museum's bear shop.yeah,and my grandparents bought me and a sister a teddy bear.yeah,go ahead and laugh.the 16-year old boy and his soft toy.i don't mind.i am a sentimental person by nature.yeah,and i still have my soft toys,pillows and bolsters.i just can't bear to throw them away.they mean so much to me.

us in korean costumes.L-R:sis,grandad,grandma,me,mum,dad

self-explanatory.

self-explanatory too.

skiing time!

in the morning,with a background of beautiful white snow covering everything.

on the mountain peak.the dragon peak!and its STILL snowing.apparently,it doesn't snow everyday.the tour guide says the snow is the equivalent of rain,and so i guess we're lucky ppl.

us with micheal,our tour guide,who did a jim dandy job in introducing and explaining the quirks and fancies of the korean culture and explaining korean history.and also for those words.i won't forget them.

me standing on a substitution block with the female lead of winter sonata.looks quite real,doesn't it?at least i didn't jump up and start to kiss the picture of the male lead,like some old aunty supposedly did.

this picture and the rest have been printed out by the tour group's photographer,so the retaking of these photos may affect the quality.photo of me making kimchi.

a group photo taken at mount sorak.3 others took the O-levels this year(our sec-4-faces are circled in red).and all 3 are chio.not only koreans produce chiobus ok!SG also does,but while korea mass-produces them,in SG,these chiobus are nearly 1 in a hundred.enlarge the photo to see.the girl in the white coat is rather chio right?and apparently,she's rather smart too.hehe,i'm not saying any names or schools in case she gets stalked.try go same jc as her?haha,its very hard.later her bro humtum me.wad a lucky man i am.so many chiobus in the same tour group,in a land of chiobus.woot XD.

this restaurant serves nice sashimi.i ate raw octopus.its writhing on a stick and u bite on a tentacle before the waitress cuts that portion off.the octopus's suckers are very strong.they stuck on my face and i had to literally peel them off my face.but it does not taste fishy.god,i don't eat fish unless its salmon cause i can't stand the fishy smell and taste.

group photo at yongpyong ski resort.see if u can spot the chiobus.god they are imba.boys will always be boys.and i am not being disloyal ok!i just wanna make more friends,if anybody is buying it.

Thought Of The holiDay:This Is A Truly Memorable Holiday.And I'm Gonna Remember It.For Reasons More Than Sightseeing And Chiobus,I Learnt Much.From Working To Spiritual Breaking,I Absorbed Plenty.Thanks.

Life After Os

2008-11-21T20:30:00.003+08:00

its getting more boring by the day.i don't have anything to do.gunbound appears to be no kick with the new rank system.silver battleaxe already and its like wtf,so no kick.

met jasme at kembangan mrt yesterday and today to lend her my thumbdrive.passed her maple file and gunbound file.see i so nice.decided not to play poke anymore.so i created new character in bootes to play new pirate job with jas'ika and her IT fren.jasme created mage and her fren also mage.i was owning jasme in maple island.and now she's faster than me!!!how can this be?i tell u how it can be.jasme play so long everday.walau,i sleep/eat/swim she also play.i play she ALSO play.thats why lor.aiya,infighter sucks max.the close range is really so close range until u have to touch the monster.if i want gunslinger,also can.but the dmg sucks.really.my dmg halved.

Thought Of The Day:Everything Is An Illusion.The Only Reality Is Action.On That Note,I Bid You Guys And Girls Farewell.Flying On Sunday Night,So I Doubt I Will Blog Until 30 Nov,When I Come Back.S.Korea,Here I Come!Don't Call/SMS Me.I Am Unavailable.Thx.

Star Wars-Mandalorians

2008-11-17T17:02:00.009+08:00

bored,so i decided to retype out excerpts from Star Wars books about Mandalorians.all excerpts are from Mandalorians:Identity and Language or Mandalorians:Identity and Its Influence on Genome,published by the Galactic Institute Of Anthropology.

-In Mandalorian lore,the color blue represents reliability;green,duty;gold,vengeance;
black,justice;gray,mourning a lost love;and red,honoring a father.

-In five millennia,the Mandalorians fought with and against a thousand armies on a thousand worlds.They learned to speak as many languages and absorbed weapons technology and tactics from every war.And yet,despite the overwhelming influence of alien cultures,and the absence of a true home world and even species,their own language not only survived but changed little; their way of life and their philosophy remained untouched,and their ideals and sense of family,of identity,of nation,were only strengthened.Armor does not make a Mandalorian.The armor is simply a manifestation of an impenetrable, unassailable heart.

-Mandalorians are surprisingly unconcerned with biological lineage.Their definition of offspring or parent is more by relationship than birth:adoption is extremely common,and it's not unusual for soldiers to take war orphans as their sons or daughters if they impress them with their aggression and tenacity.They also seem tolerant of marital infidelity during long seperations,as long as any child resulting from it is raised by them.Mandalorians define themselves by culture-loyalty,strong self-identity,emphasis on physical endurance and discipline-that causes some ethnic groups such as those of Concord Dawn in particular to gravitate toward Mandalorian communities,thereby reinforcing a common set of genes derived from a wide range of populations.The instinct to be a protective parent is especially dominant.They have accidentally bred a family-oriented warrior population,and continue to reinforce it by absorbing like-minded individuals and groups.

-The Mandalorian language has more terms of insults than any of the more widely spoken galactic tongues.But whereas most species choose insults that are based on parentage or appearance,the majority of Mandalorian pejoratives are concerned with cowardice,stupidity,laziness,dull conversation,or a lack of hygiene.It reveals the preoccupations of a nomadic warrior culture where bloodline matters less than personal qualities,faces are largely masked,and a clean,efficient camp is crucial to survival.

that's all.now let's go to to personal stuff(adapted from Republic Commando and LotF).

What's a hut'uun?A coward.Physical coward,moral coward,any kind of scum without the spine to stand their ground or do the right thing.We don't have a word for hero.Being prepared to die for your family and friends,or what you hold dear,is a basic requirement for a Mando,so its's not worth a separate word.It's only cowards we had to find a special name for.

You have to know the limits of your physical and mental endurance,so you can recognize them and pass beyond them.This is why i will push you beyond any suffering you can imagine.You will not give up and die like lesser men;you will not crack up like lesser men;you will not lose heart in the direst circumstances like lesser men.You will carry on beyond your imagined limits.And you will be the last men standing,when the weaklings have opted to do the easy thing and die.

When you can no longer know what your nation or your government stands for,or even where it is,you need a set of beliefs you can carry with you and cling to.You need a core in your heart that will never change.

The Resol'nare-the six tenets of Mando culture

Ba'jur bal beskar'gam,
Ara'nov,aliit,
Mando'a bal Mand'alor-
An vencuyan mhi.

Education and armor,
Self-defence,our tribe,
Our language and our leader-
All help us survive.

There are two reasons why we have to wear armor.One is so that we don't get killed too easily.The other is so that we all look Mandalorian,however different we may be from our brothers and sisters.

Cob'ika sincerely hopes that you gain a better understanding of Mandalorians through this post(even though it is long and tedious).He wishes to end off with this sentence "Family is more than Bloodline."

2LY'06 Chalet

2008-11-16T16:38:00.001+08:00

came back from LY chalet.obviously,our LY spirit has not been lost after 2 years.still as mischievious and (for some) lame as ever.

most memorable event in chalet is shinglong singing that stupid song to wake us up.it goes "RISE AND SHINE!ITS SWIMMING TIME!".second is the strafing run we did on 4IT'08.they were at the other end and we went to "visit" them before we went for our night-cycling.we wanted to give hanjie a "present",but obviously after spending time with IT,he's lost his guts.lost everything that connects him to LY.sad.so we went to their chalet.and some IT girls dare linwei and the others to bomb them.so we did.and hanjie hid inside the chalet and IT protected him,even when we stated our intentions that we only wanted hanjie.so "BOMB!BOMB!" went the bombs and the IT ppl were screaming.and then one IT girl go open the back window accidentally and nico the idiot go throw water bomb inside.dumb sia.told him its a one-level room so NO shooting inside and he still SG.hopeless.but i gotta say this,even though we just wanted to have fun,i feel ABIT,abit only hor, guilty.and the others were like saying,hey we just showing them the LY spirit only ma.and after that the night-cycling we cycled to and fro to bedok 85 market.now i am bored.missing LY so much man.all the fun times.about how we carried LY ppl inside cardboard boxes and told ppl to vote for LCP(lee chee peng) instead of PAP.and how junguang carried jingwen inside and met mr davamoni along the corridor.and how we stuffed jingwen into a dress.how we sang after sec 2 EOYs and we disturbed the BN and CR of our batch.

I'll always remember those times we had together.and don't forget our motto.
2 Loyalty'06:Break The Silence.

Thought Of The Day:Perhaps Its Only Me,But I Feel That I Bonded Better With LY Than MD.LY Certainly Was A Happier Place,And We Did Lay Siege(No Offence To 4IT'08) To Other Things.Firm Believers Of "Don't Plan Too Much,See How First",We Ended Up Hardly Planning.But No Matter.2LY'06 Will Never Be Gone,Not Unless Everybody Forgets That We Ever Existed.Think What You Want About Us,Crazy,Happy-Go-Lucky,Lazy,Noisy,Hopeless,Funny-AS LONG AS YOU REMEMBER US.yes.
2 LOYALTY'06:BREAK THE SILENCE!!!

O-Levels ended yesterday

2008-11-13T16:01:00.003+08:00

ok,o-levels ended yesterday for me.but i didnt feel like updating coz i had an urge to play games.well,so here i am.updating now.

oh ya,any gunbounders please add REARINGCOBRA.and maplers add Pokelover.and dun forget to click the button that says "Accept" when rearingcobra92@hotmail.com adds u. nimble_assassin@hotmail.com is outmoded;it belongs to another time and place.

nothing much to say except that when i envisioned the Os coming to an end,it felt so much nicer.i feel sort of hollow inside,if u get my drift.maybe i should start working?heh,lets see.

Quote Of The Day:If Something Shoots You,You Shoot Back.Quid Pro Quo.And Never Give Up.Ever.Some Things Are Worth Fighting,And Dying For.And That May Be The Price That We Have To Pay.

Brimming

2008-11-08T20:20:00.003+08:00

yes.i'm brimming with hope.2 more mcq papers for chem and physics.then no more.great.and i shall have to start and fulfill my promise to myself as well as to my sisters.i'm going ahead to do it.no more second guessing.and i wanta rant and rave like a madman after Os are over.start cheering soon.and as josh so rightly says, "Tough times don't last,Tough men do."and our class is going to have a modesty outing after Os,except its inside a computer.lets game together then!XD

tag replies:
Dingyi>>study for next yr la.
Jasme:D>>ya i know.many ppl told me.the song is meaningful.REALLY:P
Win Ee>>oh thx.i really do need it.
ptq>>its a mando song.means brothers all.pregnant with meaning.
EOYX>>hope so.ya i know.no i dun think so.
HL>>?

and i think thats all,folks.

Thought Of The Day:Lets Sit Down And Enjoy The Sunset Together.For Nothing Matters Now.Enjoy What We Have,And Each Other's Company.Stay Gold.

Pressure

2008-10-30T18:49:00.004+08:00

this week's papers are over.physics p2 and emaths p2.think i did ok for both.but i'm scared.what if they raise emath's A1 to 90+?i know i lost 7 marks already,but i think the rest no mistakes.dammit,stupid number patterns.gahhhh!the deed is done,so moan not and carry on.life goes on even if everything sucks.

and many said physics was GG.sure,it was a new type of paper.lol,i didn't know those one-line-sentences in the textbook could be tested.but hey,i think i did ok!lol,as my friends say,i'm ever the optimist.thats why when ppl lost 12+ marks in physics,i tot i lost 1 mark only.right,wenxian?but no worries la.on hindsight,i think its cause of my past that makes me determined to excel this time round.yes,it won't happen again.but i am thankful,cause if that didn't happen,i would never have made so many buddies.yeah,when the Force closes a hatch,it opens a viewport.how very true.

and i feel this tremendous pressure on me.its like,everybody's expecting me to do well,and even i am not sure if i can even do it.but i have to.so many things depend on it.self-doubt is indeed the most dangerous weapon against myself now.i wanna fight.if everybody else can do it,then i must too.and its times like this that make me truly thankful.people show their true colours over time,i believe.but enough said.there is a time for talk and a time for action.the time for talk is over.

Left with:
S.S - 1400 (3/11)
E.Lit - 0800 , 1025 (7/11)
Physics - 0800 (10/11)
Chemistry - 0800 (12/11)

Quote Of The Day:"Think Of It This Way.Every Great Wizard Has Started Out As We Are Now,As Students.If They Can Do It,Why Not Us?" -Harry Potter and the OotP

Courage To Excel

2008-10-26T22:54:00.000+08:00

half of those papers are ok.and i do hope i can get A1s.chem was easy,too easy,and i am scared cause i dun wanna think how they are gonna moderate.english was ok,even though,EP and IT ppl say its hard.maybe its just cause E.Lit's finally paying off.finally,A Maths is over.abit sad though.i didnt really do anything for amaths.just did 5 questions in total for amaths from prelims to the real deal.and i didnt practice amaths since like,the start of the year?yeah i know,i'm a bad example.so don't u juniors follow big,bad chorhung's example.and i heard that got people from other schools cry after P2.woot.E.Geog was GG-fied.i think i screwed up my essay question coz i didn't link.ah well,i've still got E.Lit=D!E Maths P1 was ok.found plenty of stupid careless mistakes.made sure i checked after i wrote 4x2=6 for amaths P1 and lost near to 3 marks.and i can't help but think how stressed my first week was.we finished half of our papers in a week and have the other half spread out over 3 weeks.no wonder almost every sec 4 feels rather sian.u chiong a week and when u take a break,u dont wanna stop resting.

Thought Of The Day:It's All Up Here In The Head.We Are Not What We Think We Are,But What We Think,We Are.You Can Do Anything If You Set Your Mind To It,Cob'ika.Now Prove It To The World.This Is Your Time To Shine,For It Is In The Darkest Night That The Light We Are Shines Brightest.

Here To Stay

2008-10-16T15:34:00.003+08:00

sorry ppl,never update for so long.my freaking comp shorted i think.fuse blow.on laptop now.will update IMMEDIATELY after Os.and will post graduation day photos and my report book things too.hehe,i agree with jasme.she posted the photo on her blog.yeah.i am photogenic,my dear sister =D.and with 3 days left,i shall not linger here too long.to my cohort,lets go!

for you,no mountain's too great to scale;no enemy more terrifying to face;no change too difficult to achieve;and no love more well earned.
delta:5314 56 733 390 46 1 1043 2 3073.yes.

tag replies:
EOYX:LOL,no such thing.
nad:-.-''
katie:ya lor,u so pro la.top in class.after moderation i become 6/35 leh!!!and in level 101/450!rawr!!!
dingyi:hi,yea i know.i'm updating now.XD
jasme:hi there sis!and i'm a brother.yea i saw ur post.i am photogenic!jiayou!and her fren's just plain irritating!u know who.
xavier:uh,thanks?who u?me short term memory.
ptq:yea,but mission 561 is the same as mission 1.and my only mission now is to go score well and enter MJC=D
HL:lol,ok.

Thought Of The Day:All Things End.Even Life Itself.But We Remember.Happiness Within Ourselves.Aay'han.

PS:On Hiatus Until 12 November 2008.Don't Miss Me!

A Name And A Number

2008-10-09T20:48:00.002+08:00

thats the way.after doing some mathematics,i got bored and so i decided to experiment with some numbers.from now on,RC-8362 is my number.dont ask how i got this,coz i ain't telling ANYONE.but here's a clue,i subtracted ur number from mine.once again,DO NOT,i repeat,DO NOT ask what those numbers are.

and before i forget,happy birthday jas'ika.i didn't forget ok!its just that i woke up late and called u late.but 5th person who call u gd enough la.

and the weather sucks.so many ppl i know are sick.sijia(severe flu),josh(flu),sandra(headache.LOL.).and i feel bad.coz i asked sijia to mug yesterday then can come MJ.but luckily she said she didn't,so its not my fault=D.

Poem Of The Day:

Forever (By Choy Chor Hung)

Another Place And In Another Year,
I Would Not Have Known You.
But Suddenly All My Thoughts Become Clear.
And I Feel That I'm Bless'd.

And Now The End Of Our Last Dance Is Here.
Time,Running Out Like Sand.
All The Memories Of You I Hold Dear,
Our Love Shall Never End.

Hardcore

2008-10-07T21:26:00.002+08:00

yea.hardcore time.studied for 7 hrs today.didn't do much.so finally relaxing.i'm fine thanks.what about you?and the more i hear my blog song,the more i'm gonna mug.the song is nice.

bal kote.darasuum kote.jorso'ran kando a tome.sa kyr'am nau tracyn kad,vode an.

yes.lets do it.rewrite history.pen our future.yes.

Thought Of The Day:Good Just Ain't Good Enough.

Last Day

2008-10-03T21:05:00.002+08:00

and i'm gone.no more CCHMS.but i won't miss u guys.mandos say no one's gone as long as someone says their name,remembers them and thinks of them.granted,the term "gone" is not this meaning.but,yea.

went to meridian jc for open house today.hl,yz,thomas,yuelin,zongyang came too.we sat wrong bus.and ended up near TPJC instead of MJC.then we went there.and it was GREAT.thats the one.yeah,i'm so aiming there.even with 6 points.coz thats THE one.ori'haat.

ok and i left 1 thing unaddressed.i could not help thinking this.and its going to be my question of the day.so please tell me.thanks.

Question Of The Day:Does A Man Wear His Heart On His Sleeve?Does He Show His Love Without Reservation,And Without Fear?When Should I Let Her Know?And How?

Cin Vhetin

2008-10-02T21:30:00.003+08:00

life starts all over again.cin vhetin.yeah,it finally happened.and to think it happened on the second last day of school.speaking of which,i'll miss CCHMS so much.so fast 4 yrs already.it seems like it was just yesterday when i came to this school and thinking,"huh?this my school?"and now suddenly its like,"hey,i'm gone now.so fast."i'll miss my school.but i'll be back.ori'haat.

as i was saying,i realised that its done now.i used to be reluctant to give up.always was a sore loser.but,the deed is now done and the bees have flown,the flowers distilled and the old man grows.sorry,just feeling a little poetic.yeah,i know,i walked past u twice today.but i couldn't care less if u hated my guts.ok,fine u didn't.but u get my drift.well,i decided,i'm gonna treasure every minute.for life is much like the fresh field of virgin snow;once the layer covers everything,its the new steps u take that can be seen.

finally,family.aliit ori'shya tal din.i can't wait to grow up and be a dad.because i want a family.that girl...funny,carefree,smart,kind,brave.mandokarla.i gotta say that these qualities attract me to a girl just like how a pretty face attracts aruetiise.and i had thought to complete my puzzle back this year.and u were,in a way,so close.but no,the pieces have now been assembled.and the form is taking shape,ner cyar'ika.always remember this:ni kar'tayl gar darasuum.and after all that,i think i really do know you.yes indeed,cin vhetin

Thought Of The Day:If You Only Look Out For Your Hide,Then You Are NOT A Man.Each Man Is Like A Finger.And Every Lady Too.We Are Strong Only When Together.Yes,We Will Raise Warriors.And I Won't Give Up And Die,I Won't Crack Up,I Won't Lose Heart.I Will Do What I Must,When All The Weaklings Have Given Up And Died.

I Never Learn

2008-09-26T22:16:00.005+08:00

I NEVER LEARN.no matter what happened,i'll be there.25/9/2008.

i learnt a valuable life lesson.if fate decrees it,no matter how far u go,i'll always be right behind u.because u see,i thought i was over this long ago.but coming so close makes me defocus.and once more i can't tell illusion from reality.what heaven gives,he takes back.what he takes back,he gives.the more that i destroy all my hopes of meeting u,the higher the chances of meeting u.and i'm stuck.in a world where everything is perfect,and the harsh realities of life.but illusions and fantasy are like dreams,and dreams are but another reality.to live in one is to live in all.just like to love one is to love all.

ni kar'tayl gar darasuum.

Mhi solus tome.
Mhi solus dar'tome.
Mhi me'dinui an.
Mhi ba'juri verde.

We are one when together.
We are one when parted.
We will share all.
We will raise warriors.

Thought Of The Day:And Once More I Show That My Heart Lives In A World Of Its Own.For I Have Not Managed To Rein The Strings On My Heart.Love Is Irrational.Love Is Uncontrolled.Love Can Ignite The Stars.No Matter What I Have Said,It Was All A Facade To Put You At Ease.For I Could Never Have Let You Go...

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The Calm Before The Storm

2008-09-24T21:36:00.003+08:00

i will never forget yesterday.23/9/2008.

got back the prelim results and analysis thingy today.heres the final tally.

ENGLISH : 60 (B4)
CHINESE : 74 (A2)
E MATHS : 77 (A1)
A MATHS : 57 (C5)
CHEMISTRY : 73 (A2)
PHYSICS : 60 (B4)
COMBINED HUMANS(SS=E GEOG) : 53 (C6)
ENGLISH LITERATURE : 64 (B4)
L1R5 : 17
AVERAGE : 64.75

finally tied with hl.finally won him in results.he got 17 too,but his avg is 64.5 =D.and his class position was 17/41.and i got 4/37.sianz.runming got 1st (8),then chelsea (12),then zoey (15),then me,ts and setya (17).and mr gan said our JC eligibility was 8/35,meaning that only 8 got below 20 points in our class.hope i do manage to get top 25% in level.best results ever.and i'm loving it.

yes,so i'll listen to u.because its all i've got left.i tried to run the other way,but my heart wouldn't let me.and so i'm stuck before u finally told me everything.and i'm so glad.and i learnt a new lesson.the best type of love u can give is one that is unconditional;and possibly unreciprocated.but this is the only kind of love worth dying for.you know when ppl think "when i'm gone...",you probably think they are looneys.its never wrong to hope.but u should know that hope is not something that we carry in our kit.but only these odds are worth playing.

Advice For The Day:When Everything Seems Wrong,It Probably Is.You Are What You Think.But You Are Also What You Don't Think.If You Are What You Think,Then Nobody's An Idiot.The Day I Let Go Will Be When My Heart Moves Me.Men Don't Cry.But We Will.And There's Nothing More Powerful Than Females.For Females Can Make Boys Become Men,Motivate Men,Love Men,And Most Importantly,FEEL.Intuition Was Never Men's Forte.But Like Everything In The World That Is Bipolar,Females Can Also Kill Men Who Cannot Handle Themselves.Like A Double-Edged Sword,They Can Also Kill Instead Of Heal.It All Boils Down To Who We Are.Who Am I?That Is The Game We're Playing.And The Answer Will Set Us Free.

Mamma Mia:The Movie

2008-09-21T20:41:00.002+08:00

went out with dad,mum and sis to watch mamma mia:the movie.yeah,u heard me right.yesterday at TM at 2120.ok,so i know its a month to O-Levels,but a man has gotta relax!it was GREAT.but there was a dumb part.pierce brosnan CANNOT sing.he sounds as though he's being butchered.and i love the storyline.but i think the movie is not as good as the musical a few years back.that was quite nice.and the songs are meaningful.and there are cute.so don't blame me if i suddenly start singing in class.

Thought Of The Day:The Song "Mamma Mia" Touches Me So Much.Could It Be Because Of Our Similarities?Regret,Seperation,Unrequitted Love,etc.You Get My Drift.

Prelim Results IV

2008-09-19T22:09:00.005+08:00

got back amaths and elit p2.everything sucks.

A MATHS P1 : 34/80
A MATHS P2 : 64/100
A MATHS OVERALL : 54.5 (C6) (and i know it sucks plenty)

EL LITERATURE P2(A) : 18/25
EL LITERATURE P2(B) : 13/25
EL LITERATURE OVERALL : 64 (B4) (bullshit.rate of improvement not fast enough.)

L1R5(EL,CL,EM,CHEM,PHYSICS,E.LIT) : 18

Thought Of The Day:After Doing The Post-Mortem Of My Results,I Conclude That I Am Improving,But Not Fast Enough.No More Careless Mistakes.More Practice.I Want Results.And I Know That My L1R5 Is Shitty.No Need To Tell Me How Badly I Did.I KNOW I Averaged A B3 For Every Subject.With 8 Subjects,I Got 3As,2Bs And 3Cs.No More.I Will.Excel.

Prelim Results III

2008-09-18T20:19:00.005+08:00

and egeog,chem and elit came back.ok,i thought today is screwed up day.walau,the chem teachers scare me leh.they say the paper very badly done.according to my soon,even RP got 25% failure.so u imagine how scared i am.then they give back mcq question paper.kangkiat look at me and say "eh i see hor."i was like,er, my answers not 100% correct.then kangkiat tell me he got 12 answers different from mine.and when the teachers choose some mcq questions to go through,i think i was the only guy who keep saying "yay!"lol.and after the teacher go through about 13 questions,ppl around me were saying like "eh,i got 7 wrong liao leh.then i heard some girl say "sian,12 wrong!" and i was like, "sian,3 wrong."and kangkiat keep telling me,u scared what?confirm get A what u."seriously damn comic.but our whole cohort do badly for chem.i think thats why there's one more chem time-practice!1 more chance to get A1!!yes!!and i just saw pro-ness today.hongwei that * get 80 for chem.here's my results as follow:

E GEOG : 27/50 (finally lor!!!)
COMBINED HUMANS : 53/100 (C6) (yay!!!)

CHEMISTRY P1 : 33/40
CHEMISTRY P2 : 53/80
CHEMISTRY OVERALL : 72.3 (A2) (sian,i lost to setya by 0.8 leh!!!walau,otherwise can top the class liao.i feel hopeless.i lost to setya.OMG)

EL LITERATURE P1(A) : 17/25
EL LITERATURE P1(B) : 16/25
EL LITERATURE P1: 33/50

L1R3(EL,CL,EM,CHEM ) : 9

Thought Of The Day:Yup,Its Down To 1 Month.Full Gear,Best Physical Condition,High Morale And SWAT.Hang On,Cause I'm Gonna Blow Myself Down Racing Lane.You See,I Hold Dear 3 Letters.I'll Give You A Clue.Its Very Familiar.And I'll Fly.Come On,Boy,You Can Do It!

Prelim Results II

2008-09-17T20:08:00.004+08:00

ok,we got back emaths,physics and ss.i'll keep it brief.and don't ask why.

E MATHS P1 : 63/80
E MATHS P2 : 74/100
OVERALL : 76+ (A1)

PHYSICS P1 : 31/40
PHYSICS P2 : 39/80
OVERALL : 59.5+ (C5,might B4.heh,improvement since i went this new tuition.jump in two grades in about two months leh)

SOCIAL STUDIES SBQ : 14/25
SOCIAL STUDIES SEQ : 12/25
SOCIAL STUDIES : 26/50(FIRST TIME!!!finally passed the subject!)

Current L1R2(EL,CL,EM) : 7

Thought Of The Day:Ok,Perhaps Life's Not So Bad.But You Never Understand.The Least You Could Do Was At Least Congratulate Me For Passing.But Its Never Good Enough,Correct?Unless Its A 1,Its Never Gonna Be Good Enough For You.We'll See.

Prelim Results I

2008-09-16T21:13:00.006+08:00

ok,so i got back the fragging EL papers.i'm like GG.sian la,moderate then only B4 nia.i hate my summary,oral and p1s2!!!

EL P1S1 : 18.5/30
EL P1S2 : 14.5/30(SHIET!!!)
EL P2 COMPREHENSION & VOCAB : 14/25 (YAY!!!think its highest in class,but not sure:P)
EL P2 SUMMARY : 9/25(OMG!!!)
EL ORAL : 27/40
EL OVERALL: 60

Current L1R1(EL,CL) : 6

Thought Of The Day:With Results Like This,I Die In O-Levels Liao.

Touching Post

2008-09-12T22:40:00.003+08:00

jasme and i talking about true love.both of us think that its true and touching,and so decide to post this thing.names and locations have been changed to protect people from any backlash.

&i says:
if you love some one you'll go all out for her
Cob'ika says:
i will willingly die for her
Cob'ika says:
but was am i to do?
Cob'ika says:
wad*
&i says:
ask *** to get lost
Cob'ika says:
he did
Cob'ika says:
literally
Cob'ika says:
he was ********
Cob'ika says:
so i dont see him anymore anyway
Cob'ika says:
eh ask u ar
Cob'ika says:
do u believe i would willingly die for a person?
&i says:
no.
Cob'ika says:
why not?
&i says:
I never believe we would truely love someone untiol that extent at our age
Cob'ika says:
words dont count
Cob'ika says:
only action does
Cob'ika says:
but i know deep down how much i love someone
&i says:
ok
Cob'ika says:
u see,when u love someone,it means more than just loving.u can do anything,and will do everything for that girl.loving is a sacrifice.but its one thats well-made
Cob'ika says:
do u get my drift?
&i says:
yea
&i says:
but you really would ?
Cob'ika says:
yes
Cob'ika says:
without hestitation
Cob'ika says:
hesitation*

End Of Prelims

2008-09-12T21:56:00.005+08:00

finally,the prelims are over.i only fear for my amaths p1.ok,after today,went with thomas and yongzhi to meet the other ventures.went plaza sing to watch money no enough 2.its more of a sad story at the end.and i was super touched.i promise to won't do that to my parents.it would be wrong.ok anyway,me thomas and yz reached there at around 1030.hongliang said meet at 1100.and yet they came at 1130.see,then yz said we play a game.we must dao them.first person to talk to them cannot have *** for an hour.LOL.and its thomas.so we bought 9 tickets.hl,yz,thomas,hongwei,zhenyan,
yuelin,kimshen,wenxian and me lor.first time so many of us out together.reminds me of the old times.

went for tuition at night.on the bus,i received a very "nice" sms.someone hoped that i would go back for the mid-autumn festival so she can push me into the lake.with friends like this,who needs enemies?>.<

ok,i finally got time to upload the 605 photos.here they are.

Thought Of The Day:Literally And Figuratively,I Believe The Term Used To Describe My Current Situation Is Screwed.With A Capital S.And Yes.Status Quo For Me Probably Means That I'm So Screwed.So,What To Do?

Verd'goten

2008-09-07T21:18:00.003+08:00

At Last.The Day Of Reckoning Arrives.I Am A Mando Warrior Now.Extreme Violence,Profound Love.And I Did My Research.I Can't Find Any Mando Buy'ce For Sale.Ok,There Is.Not In Production Any More.US$780.I Want One.And I Learnt To Sing Mando Songs.One Soul,One Heart,One Warrior.And Yet In The End,We Are One.Oya Manda!

Thought Of The Day:Mandalorians Are,By Nature, Family-Oriented Warriors.The Instinct To Be A Protective Parent Is Dominant In All Mando'ade.And Also,We Are Warriors.Their Language Speaks Plenty About Their Concept Of Love.Even Their Marriage Vows,Too.Yes.4 Lines That Bind Two Mando'ade Together.4 Powerful Lines.And It Speaks About The Mando Culture.Was It Any Wonder Why I Chose To Be Stuck In A Metal Suit Among Them?

2 Days

2008-09-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

60%.and i'm feeling the effects of the repercussions now.

i dont know why u think like that,but i can tell u this;to me,nothing has changed.i may not be much,but i am willing to be there.so dont ever think ur alone.coz u wont ever be.i dont know what ur saying,or why ur saying it.but in the end,we will always be there for u.dun forget that.

Thought Of The Day:If You Only Care About Your Own Hide,Then You Are Not A Man.What Makes A Man?Where Does The Line Between Fallible Mortal And Invincible Warrior Exist?Or Perhaps...Nothing More Than This.For People Who Fight For Materialistic Things Are No Warriors.They Are Fools.A Warrior Is,To Me,The Embodiment Of Duty Tinged With Power,Love Tinged With Hate,Courage Tinged With Cowardice And Honour Tinged With Lies.You Don't Have To Know.All I Have To Do Is Understand.And I Will.Fight On.Forever.

3 Days

2008-09-04T21:16:00.004+08:00

verd'goten 40% completed.

Feeling Of The Day:and i'm stretched to my limits now.yes,i'm proud to say that i am a warrior.but how much more of this can i take?as kal'buir puts it "you hone a blade to its edge.it cuts through stone and saves your life.and u get angry when it cuts u accidentally.coz knives don't switch off.and neither do people,when u hone them to a fine edge."and i am honed down already.but when u hone a knife to its edge,u run the risk of it snapping.how do i prevent this?switch off?

u see only what u want to see.as i have said,its whats under the armour counts.you know,sometimes i think that maybe i think too much.life goes on.yada yada.but u must realise this.nothing ever stays the same.the whole of life is balanced in a status quo,and a feather can tip everything into chaos.but i don't want things to change.because i dont want to know and guess and feel anymore.so i'm groping my way blindly in the dark.and i can fall any minute.because this can be likened to the fog of war.where u know NOTHING.but i try.and i hope i succeed.i really wished u know.about how much i care.

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4 Days

2008-09-03T20:57:00.003+08:00

4 more days.metamorphosis 20% complete.

and as an afterthought,wad would you do if something happened and you wanted to help but could not?i understand wad ur feeling,but please,this could just be a misunderstanding.u need friends.don't give it up.its not worth that much.i hope you understand that maybe things aren't as bad as they seem.no matter wad happens,you have other friends.you could mediate and put a resolution to this.i hope you understand wad i'm driving at.if you need any help,u got my number.

and yes,kk,i'm reporting a red zero.i cant do nothing,if both dont try.and change ur phone.coz i called u 5 times,u noob.

Thought Of The Day:I'm Not What Is Made Of Matter.It is What I Do That Defines Me.What I Am Don't Matter.Verd Ori'shya Beskar'gam.Its Who I Am Under The Armour That Counts.just remember,4 more days.

Change

2008-09-02T21:19:00.004+08:00

some people find change to be repulsive.but its the only way way forward.and i'm still counting down.5 more days.before reform.and when i'm gone,will anyone think of the old me?or will the new me eclipse everything that i have fought so hard for?questions,questions.yet in the end,the questions are always more than the answers.have you ever wondered,if i'm gone...?yes i'm sure u have.its whats called a contingency plan.except we should not have one at our age.but when i'm gone...i'll make sure the new me survives.i owe it to everyone.will you miss me?

Thought Of The Day:I'll Make It Through,And Show Everyone.You See,Fear,Jealousy,Anger,They Can Be Friends If You Know How.And I Learnt Plenty About Switches.I Just Hope You Don't Trip The Wrong One.Ret'urcye Mhi,Ner Vod.

6-05 Reunion

2008-08-29T22:06:00.004+08:00

today went back to rosyth after teacher's day celeb.gave a present to the best teacher in the world!LMS,forever the best!ok,as i was saying,went back with detian and yingjie.linwei and jocelyn never go back.went back and i called zi en.then i called julia.so zi en,julia,mengliang,terence,edwin,
alicia,charmaine,denise,dominic boey,
detian and i went back to visit mr bong.

*photos coming soon*

then after that,went to macs with them to "socialise".jeffrey came later on.he looks DAMN different.but i realised something.last time i tot zi en,alicia they all quite tall.but now...ahem...take note,i didnt say anything.after that went to tuition with sijia they all.and sijia was late.funny sia.she stand at the door there and look at us sitting down.then she see us looking and she say "eh i tired sia."lol.

and i realised that denise is in TJC.and she said that its NOT stressful.MJC is a mugger school from what i heard.and detian,i go wanna MJC coz its the best.unlike u,go SA to peer.and denise little bro is my sis classmate.and they are always msg-ing each other.i wonder what thing.and denise told me how she realised that our siblings know each other.lol was laughing like mad.

Thought Of The Day:Once Bitten Twice Shy.Never Again.You See,Its All About Luck And Destiny.If Somehow You Are Not Fated,Then Everything Just Falls Apart.What's Yours Can Never Ever Be Truly Taken Away.If It Can,It Probably Means That It Was Never Meant To Be Yours In The First Place.You See,I'm Not The Man I Was Before.And Somehow,Thats The Problem.

Star Wars The Clone Wars

2008-08-28T15:19:00.004+08:00

i disagree with all those ratings.this show is great.ok,let me be insensitive for a min.while the HCL and CL(retakers) have their exams,thomas,shaun and i were at plaza sing.ok,so wad if the starting scroll in was pathetic?the fighting scene more than made up for it.and the humour that the driods had.apparently,the CIS has droids that are more human by the minute,and perhaps they can try programming irony next.and the humour is funny."open fire on sector 1749...." "opening fire on sector 174.. wad?" *droid commander grabs the other driod's head and says"over there."LOL.and the droid fell down the cliff later on.the commander said "come back!" LOL.yes,it may be a cartoon show,but it certainly is good.and after that,i went to the lego shop.saw the millenium falcon there.$999.99.its a good offer.cheaper than if i had to import it from USA.that will cost me near $1400.end of the year,i'm gonna get it.thomas LOL-ed at me and told me that buying other stuff is better.well,since i'm getting a laptop this year end,might as well buy it.the thing on my mind is not the cost of the lego.its WHERE i'm gonna place the toy.i really need to go clear out my wardrobe or something.and i also want to get a nice set of Mando Armour.yup,i wanna join the Five-Oh-First.as soon as i am 18.theres a group of them in SG.where do i buy my set of beskar'gam?and i want my bucket as well.501st Legion Forever.

Thought Of The Day:Simple And Sweet.ily.

Regrets And Aspirations

2008-08-27T20:40:00.004+08:00

If Only I Could Choose
i would tell you things that i wanted you to know.
i would have made sure that i am perfect.
i would have studied harder.
i would have told you how much i feel.
i would have conquered myself.
i would choose to be the best i can be,
if only i could choose.

choice the double-edged sword,
leaving behind only all those
scars and my bleeding heart.
i would have put my heart back together.
i would have run the course for you.
i would have fought on for you.
if only i could choose.

By:Yours Truly

somehow,i don't feel very happy.yeah,u probably think,"hey,ur exams are finished.go play!"well,there's more to life than games.i think i'm addicted to studying.coz when i'm bored,i take the chem text and i read it.i dont find studying boring.studying is fun.its the exams that are boring.i might deserve a break,and i might not.who am i to decide such things?

so,i leave it to my "friend",one who studies when its time,and who plays when its time.this friend even motivates me for my tests.she makes me aspire to beat the rest.she makes me wary of my own shortcomings.and she teaches me how to transcend my physical shell.after all,we are not only matter.and i find that such inspiration makes me hungry for success.every test i complete,i can do.and i will do.she is my teacher,and she is my student.because it all boils down to how far you are willing to go.it is said that life is a marathon,and not a sprint.do quitters win?hardly,if ever.and so i do my utmost,for it is all i can do,and i endure.i endure to make sure victory is mine.famous last words,but its something else to make sure i do not join that di'kutla group of people for whom those were last words.and i remember.that smile,that look.etched in my memory forever.pain to disappoint you.pain to excel.pain to achieve.pain in service of my,our,destiny.feelings forged in the trials of pain.three words,one meaning.indeed.

Times Like This...

2008-08-15T20:51:00.005+08:00

before i go further,i would like to add comments on my previous post.told my mum about my results.she was like "wa!u get A2 ar?not bad!not that we look down on you,but we expected you to get a B3."she told me in some chim chinese words that she and my dad are very happy AND satisfied with my results,considering how i ostracised chinese in the past.but i'm not happy.i feel that i ought to have done better.because somewhere inside tells me that i have the potential to get A1.LMS thinks so,friends and other teachers think so,and I think so.i do want to retake,but i'm not allowed to.so i'm gonna just live with it.so i have no choice but to work even harder for my other subjects.

today went to marine parade library to study with sijia and gaoxin.then we went to pp's macs.while we were eating,the admin called us to tell us tuition cancelled.sijia was like,"huh,the guy talk like mumbling liddat.i thought he call me to tell me i win prize leh."and i was like,"er...if we on the bus then how ar?luckily we say come eat first."so we ate at macs and we were like telling jokes and stories about our past la.makes me realise how little i know.and yes,i got suaned by thomas and barry coz i forgot thomas' birthday.XDthen after that gaoxin went home and me and sj walked to the bus stop.sj said "eh,i bet u my bus come first."of course i said no,coz she takes almost any bus.and sure enough,the next bus to come she could take.ha,next time my bus will come first.anyway,both sj and gx live near pp leh.i live furthest=(i know sj lives at ***.ha,i saw the pass in her wallet and i think the picture damn funny.she said it looked dumb.i dunno.but i know her ezlink card photo cutest.lol.

Thought Of The Day:Life's Not A Race Against Time,Contrary To What Many Believe.Life Is A Race Against Yourself,To How Much You Maximise Yourself.But If You Race Against Yourself,Then Time Is The Deciding Factor,As It Waits For No One.And So,My Conclusion Is That Life Is A Race Against Yourself Against Time,And The Only Part That Counts Is How You Want To Live It,Who You Want To Spend It With,And How You Want To Achieve Your Dreams.Its Times Like This That Makes You Aware Of What Truly Matters.Yes,It Is.

Chinese O-Levels

2008-08-12T15:49:00.003+08:00

got back chinese results today.i can't say much.A2 (Merit).i dunno.a little bit happy thats its a distinction.too bad its not the best.ah well,from someone who from s1 hardly ever passed chinese,i supposed an A2 is not bad la.heh,first time i got an A for chinese since PSLE.at least the teachers were right.they started out the results presentation with this phrase,一份耕耘，一份收获.and 刘老师 always said that we should 先苦后甜.she told us that from the start of the year that if we do well,then when chinese lesson comes,we can have free periods.so its here finally.before i start digressing(oops,i already did),here's a summary of how our CL cohort did as well as how the school did.

4 Modesty'08: 7 Students. % Distinction(A1/A2)=71%
CCHMS: 158 Students. % Distinction(A1/A2)=39%
NATIONAL: >158 Students. % Distinction(A1/A2)=26%

and unless,i am mistaken,our pass rate is 100%.yeah well,i wanna thank some ppl here on this blog,without which,i doubt i would be happy now at all.

family-for always being there to support me.especially my sis,whom i love to disturb(relaxation)
friends-for believing that i can do it,and helping me with my pathetic language command;people like eileen,donut,cat,kangkiat.
teachers-for helping me to achieve my potential(k,this sounds rather corny),and never giving up on me even when i had given up on myself.because of ur guidances,i managed to achieve what i have done today.
last,but not least,her-motivating me to excel,and win her.i'll been thinking about what u said,and somehow i agree.and maybe this why we were destined to me.thank you.and also for the things you told me.i'll remember those times.i promise.

Thought Of The Day:Even When I Have Done My Best,I Just Can't Stop Thinking About How Best Is Never Good Enough.I Know I'm Supposed To Be Happy And Pleased With Myself After I've Come So Far.But I Can't Do It.And I Can't Stop Thinking About How This Results Might Be Wrong.Those People Whom I Expected To Do Well Did Not,And Those Who Did Well Were Unexpected.Perhaps This Is Retribution Then.Or Mercy.Depends On How You Think.But As I Think,The Only Thing That Does Not Change Is My A2.For It Is Mine,For Now And Forever,For Good Or For Worse...

I'm High This Week.

2008-08-09T22:21:00.004+08:00

im very high.i dont know why.this week has been fun!x-country,for starters and the fact that i managed to complete 1 chem paper,3 physics and the rest of my time doing nothing.aw shucks,i knew i should have woken up earlier today.i spent the whole morning doing nothing except eating breakfast,reading newspaper and reading through my chem notes.i think i got a test tomorrow.but i'm not sure.=( x-country was great though.the boys spray hairspray on our hair.sad lor,we only got fringe.i want longer hair!perhaps i leave it long after the O's.and,speaking of O's,i'm starting to get afraid.i'll get my chinese o-level results on tuesday.ARRGH!i'm nervous.low meow siang says we'll get our results in the later part of the day.1000 am?stang,i'll need all the luck i can get.where were we?o ya,hair.sj go spray the snow on the back of my hair and eyebrow.spoilt my nice looking fringe.i went home and took a pic of the white spot ok!ruined my otherwise perfect hair.yes,that bromine-coloured fringe.sijia is a bumblebee.yes.by x-ref to myself and yinghui,zoey is proven to be a reliable source as we agree that sj is a bumblebee!HAHA.told u i was high.o ya,'fore i forget,im only gonna update during weekends.dont miss me.

I <3>Singapore!Happy National Day!!!

and btw,like my new skin and song?leave a tag on my cbox pls.=D

Thought Of The Day:I Realise That Everyone Has A Point To Reach Before They Attain Their Full Potential.We Have To Find That Point And Max It Out.I Found It.Where Is Yours?

I'm Going Away...

2008-07-31T17:45:00.005+08:00

i'm going away.back to my natural element.back to service.duty is cleansing.at least i'm freed from the alien world of relationships i'd never learnt to handle.free to do what i must and want to do.what is love?this,by itself,is a question worth considering,yes?

love looks not with the eyes,but with the mind,and therefore is winged Cupid painted blind [Midsummer Night's Dream,Shakespeare].we can hold this to be true based on the behavourial patterns of people,most noticeably in males.they do stupid things and end up making a fool of themselves.

"although there's nothing to like about someone,we still love them.love is a very seperate thing.it has an independent life of its own."yet,someone answers,"if you have to earn love based on points,then its not really love,is it?its more of approval."

people kill the one they love all the time.the motive can be anything,but in the end,you end the life you would have done anything to preserve,and then u go on living.you sometimes have to kill what u love,end their pain and take it on yourself-because thats exactly what love is sometimes.

you need not like someone in order to love him.love is nothing more than the recognition that two are one.that all is one.this knowledge is the seed of greatness.

because love is all this things and more,i am now more sure than ever than my destiny lies along a different path.the path of duty.it is now time to walk the bright fields of live.looking at not what life is like,but rather what life will be.and i understand my calling.i heed it.i shall focus.yes,indeed.focus on that is coming.and perhaps someday,my path shall lead me down love again...

Thought Of The Day:
4 Simple Words That Strike A Resonance Within Me.
Honour,Courage,Dedication,Love.
Honour-to live with integrity,be honest with myself.
Courage-to do what i am most afraid to do,and by doing so,gain the courage and strength i seek.
Dedication-to do my duty.to SERVE,with pride.
Love-to love all without reservation,and without fear.

Bipolar

2008-07-26T22:29:00.003+08:00

what is right and wrong?lies and truth?light and dark?love and hate?perhaps its is because the world is a bipolar place.everything is one.it encompasses everything,and makes it dual.bipolar;even couples are pairs,as is our brain.however,for each person,there is always a third stabilising influence that we always fail to consider.it differs for every single person."Everything I tell you is a lie."in this statement,as our dear Fosh explains,it is a truth.it may sound contradictory,but then again,so is life.truths are rarely in black and white.to recognise truths is to take the step into a whole new world.what is the purpose of this post?"Everything I tell you is a lie."trust what you feel;decide,and then act.this i have done.i hope i am not walking on the path to my own destruction.

Thought Of The Day:Because I Feel The Same Way Too.

& Life Goes oN...

2008-07-24T19:10:00.004+08:00

i'm gonna be sick soon.woke up today with flu and headache.gosh,i knew i should not have done so much maths yesterday night.*must think positive!*as u can see from that new timer that i put in,its about 3 more months left.actually,its 87 more days.i'm like,so tired nowadays.*must think positive!*and just for the record,i think that sitting next to sijia in class is very good for my studies.however,i get bullied like,once per minute???so sad.maybe its coz i'm nice to bully?sijia certainly thinks so.well,when life's screwed up,it will get better.i know that coz my life is at its lowest point now.i think i will probably get my results in IMH next year.*must think positive!*i miss bullshitting with kangkiat.but if i sit next to him,i'll probably get too distracted and not pay attention.*must think positive!*

Feeling Of The Day:I Just Want It To All End.I Can't Take This Much Longer.I'm Dangling,And All Thats Holding Me Back From Falling Is Just A Thread.And Its Getting Thinner Day By Day.Perhaps The Question Should Be What I Am,Instead Of Why I Am Doing This.This Much,At Least,Is Clear.

I Am Chor Hung.What Are You?

And Perhaps...

2008-07-21T19:59:00.008+08:00

my sis is back from hong kong on sat.she went on some choir competition.got silver A.means she got 3rd out of 12 schools in the under-12 category.she bought some presents back for me.im a really lucky bro,i think.so maybe i should stop disturbing.or rather,not disturb her so often.she got me the most presents,apart from herself of course.i got a cute little bear that is about to graduate.she says its coz its my o-lvl year so she bought this for me.also,i got a wallet from her and other stuff which i dont need to mention here.maybe shes nicer than i thought,then.heres a pic of the cute teddy and the wallet.and shes only 11.maybe she'll grow up to be a shopping queen.my dad said that she only know how to spend money.then she told him that if dont spend the money,come back singapore change to SG currency must lose money somemore -.-''

the cute bear from hallmark

billabong wallet

also,went to my grandparents' house.they got a cute dog.its name is wangwang,i think.heres some pic of the dog.

isn't she cute?she's dancing i think.

just look at its adorable face =D.i think i'm so in love with it.man's best friend indeed!

Thought Of The Day:Betrayal,Pangseh-ing And The Likes Seem To Run Rampant In Our School.The Best Way To Combat Those Infidels Who Do Unloyal Things Like This Is To Have Interest.Ah Well,You Get My Drift...Or Perhaps Its Better To Screen Through Them First.After All,Its Just A Lie.

2008-07-19T15:33:00.003+08:00

what use is life when u are ignorant of the IDEAL?what is our purpose in life?to study?to mug?to die?in the end,the questions are more than the answers.until i find the answers,i cant do that.i shall have to go through my trial of fire.pain,that others only feel,but do not understand.to know that sometimes,the best way to save things is to kill it.the threshold comes within sight.until i get my answers,none shall pass.

Literature Fest 2008

2008-07-12T21:28:00.006+08:00

sian today wake up go katong meet sijia,albert and yinghui.then my father car tire puncture.so i sit cab.reached school in 4 mins.debate was at crescent girls school.our team was against PLMGSS.although we didnt win,i feel that as long as we did our best,we have already won.hey btw,sijia and yinghui did well too.but they all said that i did my role as 3rd speaker best!yay!not bad when i have to do this for my future career...after the debate,me,albert,sj and yinghui went to KFC.we ate and then albert had to go for his tuition.yinghui,sijia and me then went home via MRT.yh alighted at city hall to meet ** and so me and sijia sat to kembangan together lor.on the way,we talk about some stuff.so apparently,i am not the only one who feels that way too lor.dun worry sj,u aint imagining it,coz some of us do so as well.Its What We Do And How We Do Things That Defines Who We Are!always remember this,and all shall be fine.

Self-Explanatory

In The Debate Room

Sijia Looks Weird.It Was Supposed To Be A Tree Dance,But We Had To Protect Our Dignity.

Erm...At The Playground??Lol,Me,Hg And Thomas Supposed To Look Punk,In The End,Sijia Showed More Attitude -.-'

Pan Jie With His Signature Pose

CCHMS Debate Team 2008

Look At The Noob Yinghui.HAHAHA!!!Nice One Sijia!!! =D

Feeling Of The Day:Life Is Only Different And Strange If You Refuse To Embrace Your Destiny.Through Victory,My Chains Are Broken.I Learn More About You Everyday.And I'm Still Learning More.One Day,I Shall Face You And Tell You How Much I Love You.A Vision Of You And Me.But That Day Is Not Today.I Am Young.I Will Wait And Learn.

Passing Out Parade (POP) 2008

2008-07-10T20:42:00.014+08:00

after today, i will cease to be a venture scout of cchms panthers.truth to be told,u guys did a really great job.we're proud of you.after planning my POP Speech for 2 days,i finally completed it yesterday night.researched a few quotes and idioms for personal values that i think will be useful to the scouts.and now,its time for pictures galore.

The Gateway That The Scouts Built,With Them As GOH.

Sec 1s And 2s And Richie

So Much Food!!!

Ventures And Our Food.Yong Zhi Looks Very Hungry.

POP Tekkan Session.I'm Quite Sadistic To Take Photos Of Them Pumping.

Ventures With Pang Hian And Siaw Hui('07 Venture Batch)

Candid Shot.Han Jie And Yong Zhi Trying To Be Taller Than Each Other...

Souvenir That The Scouts Gave Us Ventures.I'll Treasure This For Life.They (Chin Wang) Said That The Ups And Downs Of The Sand Resemble The Ups And Downs Of Life And Our Scouting Life.Ain't Mine Gorgeous?Richie Said He Chose The Best One For Me.No Wonder We're Good Friends.Lets Sing Campfire Songs Again,Shall We?

All In All,The Food Was Great,The Venue(Lit Room) Was Great,And The Performance Was Great.With Sec 1s Enacting Portions Of The Scout Promise,Sec 2s Doing Edison Chen Scandal Skit And The Porn Jokes By The Two Guys,Sec 3s' Skit Of The Hairy Law And Fong Sin's Cold Jokes,I Was Touched.I Remeber At Sec 1 During My First POP,After We Got Tekkan-ed By Eugene,I Looked Forward To My Own POP.And Now When My POP Finally Comes,I Find That I Can't Bear To Let Go Of The Place I Always Considered My 2nd Home.Scouts Gave And Taught Me So Much.I Won't Be Posting Testimonials Of Scouts,Because I Gave Them My Word That I Will Come Back Next Year.Until Then,Fellow Brothers,Take Care And May The Scout Law And Promise And The Speech I Made Guide You.

Yours-In-Scouting,

Ex-Venture Choy Chor Hung (Passed Out In 2008)

Thought Of The Day:Parting Is Sorrowful,Not Sweet At All.But Its Only Gonna Be A Temporary One.I'll Be Back.I Promise It On My Honour.

Speech Day 2008

2008-07-06T21:58:00.011+08:00

speech day was great.although there were "casualties",the scouts put up a great job.Panthers and Peregrines put up a great display,and showed the others why we are scouts.as they say,a picture paints a thousand words.so here are the pics.

THE Panther Scouts(And Ventures)

Candid Shot!

Scout Contingent Commander Sulaiman Iman

Scout Contingent(Some Girl Scout Named Jamie,huh?)

Aerial View of the Parade

Anyone See A Trend In The Guides Contingent?Lets Just Say They Are All ChioBus.Their Auras Blinded All Of Us,Especially Lin Wei And Hong Liang.Me And Kim Shen Appeared To Be Blind,Cause Our Eyes Didn't Explode.

Thought Of The Day:I Love This Unit.It Watched Me Grow Up.It Also Made Me Grow Up.And Like That Folklore,I Promise To Return Whenever In Need.Its Time To Stop Taking,And Time To Give Back To Panther Scout Troop.In That,I Must Do My Duty.Long Live The Panthers!

Speech Day Rehearsal

2008-07-03T17:13:00.005+08:00

yesterday,hongliang,kimshen and i went to speech day @ CCH Yishun in the capacity of a instructor.so i got another chance to break out my uniform.1 word to describe the situation:GG!with a sitrep from a juniors and by witnessing the "spectacle" occurring right under my very nose,i have to concur with THAT word.i was able to see the difference between our 2 school's units.peregrines were less well-trained,and us panthers were best.(but,of course,seeing who it was that trained them=D)they also do not seem to have a clear command structure.one of their venture,rayner,come down.he apologised to us coz his scouts kept making mistakes.but seriously,its not his fault.the guy told the contingent commander(CC) to take charge.after that,all the CCs keplakang-pusing-ed.then he started talking again.so all the CCs turned back to face him.all except our scout CC.so i had to walk behind him and gesture to him twice before he took the hint and turned back.luckily,hl had anticipated such problems,thats why we came along;to ensure no screw-ups.as much as i hate to say,the guides were better than us(no offense to any guides,its just my pride speaking).but we will improve,or i will personally drag them to the top come saturday.there can be NO mistakes.

after speech day rehearsal,we went back to school.the bus ride to-and-fro was super fun.the sec 3s and hl and i had a memory recall session.we remembered all the times we spent together.all the times we slogged together.all the times we died together(Be Prepared Camp-6 Ways To Make You Die).and finally,all the times we shared a laugh together.of nanhong the abrasion boy.of the hairy law.of fongsin's billy tanu hair.we grew up and became Men together.i remember in sec 2,when i first met all of you current sec 3s,there were many of you.now there are only 6.but this 6 have all gummed together.and for that,i am most thankful and proud.having dinner with all of you yesterday at the roti prata stall,it struck me that how fast time seems to unravel,seperating me from you all.i suddenly found that all of you had indeed grown up,and that you were able to lead,only needing us ventures as ADVISORS,not as MENTORS.i hate to have to leave you all,but time never stops.i can only hope that,as a senior,i have at least managed to guide you properly and help you all prepare for life ahead.thank you,sec 3s for being good juniors,enthusiastic and friendly,good friends who are loyal,good people who will be useful in the society,and finally,for just being yourselves.if you guys have managed to read until the end of all this,then i guess that you have indeed caught the gist of my speech at this year's Passing Out Parade.

here's a picture of you guys yesterday night at the prata shop:

on a lighter note,i wanna show a stupid picture.but first,i must thank sijia for lending me her stuff.but hey,i also lent her my spa file^^.thx sj!ok,here's a funny picture:

why do you need people to call if it is monitored by security cameras?FYI,this thing was at CCH Yishun.Enough Of Emo-ing And Stupid Signs.

Thought Of The Day:Just When I Thought I Was Finally Liberated From The Horror Of It,I Found Myself Sucked Back Into The Vortex.I Can't Let Go,Because I'm Afraid If I Do,I Will Just ... Go.The Only Option Seems To Be Holding On,For If I Don't Or I Can't,I Will Not Have The Strength To Face My Friends Who Have Supported Me Through This.For My Greatest Fear Is To Let Go And Tell Her That I Love Her,But Is Forced To Unlove Her...

Facial Is Painful!!!

2008-06-28T21:39:00.004+08:00

today i went for a facial.omg,the extraction part was DAMN pain.i HAVE to endure this.to improve my "self-image",i went for a trial facial lah.super pain.and my face seems to be a lil' red.i'm so sad.and i have to go for a facial every 3 weeks!omg~omg~my sister is singing and she is irritating me.i'm gonna do it.and WIN.

Gold Leader,
Signing Off

Dream Of The Day:A Dreaming Serpent,An Idealistic One,Has To Shed Its Skin Sooner Or Later.To Wake Up One Day To His True Calling,His Destiny.Perfect Strength,Perfect Spirit,Perfect Destiny.Imagine That.And So Dreams Have To End,So You Have To Go.For Only Then,Can I Fulfill The Prophecy Of The ... ...

In The Blink Of An Eye

2008-06-20T14:53:00.004+08:00

time always flies when you are having fun.not that i would say doing work is fun.but u get the drift.i miss ly so much.even after going out yesterday with them,i still miss them.i miss the stupid times when we all had a laugh together.all the shouting of "cheepengcheepeng".all the dava jokes and the mai-yee-song-yee.watched zohan with them yesterday.lol its nc16 but a lot of us...haiz...holidays over,no time to slack.4 more months and it all ends.

was watching star wars the original trilogy.the o's are like the death star."i'm all clear,so lets blow this thing and go home."the Force will be with me,always.

Thought Of The Day:Betraying Trust,To Act Is To Betray,Not To Act Is To Betray.So What Must I Do?I Shall Know When I Am At Peace;When I Am One With The Force...

A Stupid Post(Posted In Class Blog Also)

2008-06-11T18:23:00.000+08:00

Is A Class Blog Dead Because The Blog Died Or Because The Class Is Dead?The Probability Of The Blog Dying Is 1/2,Because Either It Died Or It Lived.In Light Of The Deadness Of The Class Blog,I Can Conclude That The Probability Of The Class Updating Is 1/X(where X is a very large no.)The Percentage Of People Who Come To This Blog And Tag/Update Is >20%.By Plotting A Graph Of "Active" People/"Dead" People,Y=mX+c(where c is a constant),The Value Of m Is Approximately 5.By Substituting The Values Of Y=7,m=5,X=37,c Is Revealed To Be -178.To Check If Our Class Has A Stationary Point,Differentiate X A Second Time,d^2x/dy^2.It Is 0.We Must Now Use Our First Test.But I Can't Be Bothered To Draw It Here.So We Shall Assume It Is Positive.Integrate The Straight Line Graph To Get A Curve.This Curve Is Positive.

Based On That Nonsensical Gibberish That Has Just Been Typed By My Fingers,I Can Conclude That Learning Maths Is Fun Because You Can Apply It To Real Life(some aspects of it,anyway).

Thank You,
E/A Maths Rep,
Choy Chor Hung,
Rearing Cobra,
Embodiment Of Cheerfulness
tHe LaUgHiNg GoD~~

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Star Wars Legacy of the Force:Invincible

2008-06-09T13:54:00.006+08:00

heh went for a haircut at centrepoint on sat.i think my hair looks great.better than that old one.after that,my mum brought me and my sis out.I GOT IT!I FINALLY GOT IT!THIS!Star Wars Legacy Of The Force:Invincible.

Its a very heartwarming story,and the more I read,the more I become enthralled.Jacen Solo,Darth Caedus,killed by his sister.At 299 pages,Its the shortest hardcover ever.I felt like crying after reading it.Truly,It was worth the wait.It was released on 13 May^^ And I got it on 7 June.Truly touching.For more information on Star Wars LotF:Invincible,go to http://www.theforce.net/books/reviews/r_invincible.asp Apparently,the comment i found MOST touching was the one flashback(P281) that said "...no one you love really ever has to die-not if you don't want them to...All you have to do is hold a place for them in your heart."Ironically,Jacen was the one who said this to Jaina,and she remembers it after she killed him.This makes me wonder if Jacen had been trying to lure Jaina into the Dark Side,because one of the prophecy is that "He Will Immortalize His Love."Perhaps the entire LotF series has been planned out during the Vong war.Nonetheless,I would like to congradulate the entire team(Aaron Allston,Karen Traviss,Troy Denning) for a job well done!kudos to you guys!And thanks are in order for Karen Traviss,who wrote books for the first time from the point of a grown-up Boba Fett.

after that,went to toys'r'us and bought a Republic Cruiser after 30% discount.from $189 become $130.cheap indeed!god,its HUGE and it looks super cool.took me 5 hrs to assemble it.rearranged my shelf and now its a whole shelf filled with Star Wars things.Ok,i'm gonna go swimming.need to tan myself.byebye!

Thought Of The Day:Truly Wonderful,The Galaxy Of Star Wars.Epic Battles And Duels.It Has Left A Mark On Me.Forever,Star Wars.May The Force Be With You.You Don't Know The Power Of The Dark Side.Sometimes,When You Can Sink No Lower,The Only Way Is Up.Unfortunately,The Dark Is A Bottomless Well Of Power.Those Who Falter Will Be...Left Behind.I'm Waiting Now...Darth Bane:Rule Of Two And Star Wars:Millennium Falcon...Coming,They Are ...ni Darth Tohful be darjetii,ni Mand'alor,Oya Manda!

SA1

2008-06-06T21:46:00.004+08:00

got back my report book.MRU to update blog as i have been "banned".juz realised that although my l1r5 is 22,my class position and level position is 9/37 and 156 (34% in cohort)(i think).at this rate,all of us are gonna go to poly lousier courses like erhem,shipbuilding?-.-'gonna have to work harder.coz i ain't not gonna give up.i've come so far.this ain't gonna be any holiday;its a mugging season.yup,i gonna be a talkative cup.-.-'lol how lame can i get?but who cares?i'm on hiatus now.its 136 days to the O's.so i'm gonna work and fight like force 136>.<

Feeling Of The Day:I've Come To Value Loyalty Very Highly Nowadays.You Don't Wanna Mess With Me,Cause You Won't Like The Outcome If You Do.I'm Loyal To People,Not Principles,And Thats Why I Will Always Do My Best To Help My Friends.At All Cost.Thats My Weakness.But Everything Comes With A Price;With My Loyalty,I Expect Your Loyalty In Return.I Help You Because I Know You Will Do The Same For Me Were Our Positions Reversed.And I Will Fight,And Win,Because Between My Will And The Will Of The Force,It Is No Contest At All...

some no.ob's birthday is today...

2008-06-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

first,i'm gonna be the one who wishes angeline happy birthday.what a great fren i am...

CIP @ Tampines

2008-05-31T15:25:00.005+08:00

great day,today.went to tampines and did some work.yup,u got that right.ur truly went to collect old papers and clothes.before u start saying o,wad for when u got some much cca pt,rmb that i went so that i won't be stuck at home.met ys at bus interchange.went there and i grouped up with kk and jj.we 4 went to tampines block 708 to collect the stuff.apparently,the garung guni came earlier than us.we tio mass ks!so we summoned extra help and tried to box the garung guni up.well,he lost to us,obviously.with the extra help,we were like 10 v 1?ended our block tour at 1015 approx.went to slack.got dismissed at 1115 approx.all the guys walked to tm which is like so near??the bus reached the interchange a minute before us-.-' and it was CROWDED.ate at kfc and i helped kk to answer his phone from eb.lol,jj and ys make it sound as though we 4 gaying together LOL.and i spoke to eb in a girly voice.woots.went to toys'r'us and did a quick search of some stuff.left tm at about 1300.met president na on the mrt and bullshitted with him.

Quote Of The Day:Egocentric People Are B******s Who Think That The World Revolves Around Them.And When You Challenge Them,They Give All Sorts Of Excuses.What Pathetic Losers.A Very Good Example Is *******.Losers,All...

As Smartness Is Undefined

2008-05-29T19:01:00.004+08:00

ever wondered why i exist in a different plane from yours?well,thats coz i know codes.for example,138419517=gibberish.go figure out how i got that.when u can decode that,then u will be able to know my deepest secret...1-2586-597-318-734(note:the dashes indicate a new word).aim high,hit high.5698-5433-78315-12-135319!

solved the code yet?well,feel free to check your answer with me.here's another one:xemos,y ouya andom'w!u can't figure that out.coz the code changes to a new letter per word.find out what i say and i call YOU pro.

今天的感想：对我来说，我始终放不下你。你破了我的心，我默默地忍受，但最后，换来的一生血汗。（o.O sentence is not smooth.told ya my cl sucks）所谓：一朝被蛇咬，十年怕井绳。你给了我什么呢？吃的苦中苦，方位人上人。我决定了。从今日起，我不会再转过头了。勇敢地面对人生吧！

ManDalorians Triumphant!

2008-05-27T16:45:00.002+08:00

hey dude,i'm happy that its all over for you.remember,u never need to care what others think of you.we trust you,thats enough.no need to thank me.the mandalorians have this saying which really captures the essence of our friendship:Burc'ya vaal burk'yc, burc'ya veman.it translates roughly to A friend during danger is a true friend.believe in yourself.hold ur head high!be proud that u and her survived this storm together.there is nothing more that i can say.personally,i think i'm turning soft.ah well...extreme violence,profound love...i suspect our friendship is also bordering on love.but no worries,i'm not gay coz i'm in love with her.and yeah,u know it too.

Thought Of The Day:If You Say It,You Gotta Prove It.No Two Ways About It.Coz All Of Us Are Feeling aden'la About This.Its Hard To Believe.OYA MANDA!

Its All Over =)

2008-05-26T20:10:00.002+08:00

its over.finally.no more chinese.i need only study for 7 subjects during year-end.先苦后甜,only now do i understand how it feels.i am ...at peace... went to tm after o's with jj.leon was late.yishen's bus was late.haiz...watched indiana jones.nice show.lol i was nearest to 2 girls.the other guys keep asking me to move in,sit next to them.lol,during the show,they were like scared and hugging their knees.-.-'like it was so scary anyway.refused to sit next to them.so i left a space open for leon to go in and talk to them.in the end,it remained empty.lol,those girls are bimbotic.seriously.got looks but look very paikia.not my taste.their figure is also average.in the end,i didn't betray my pap.yeah dude,i'm so happy until i can fly. =D

Thought Of The Day:Grateful.Simple And Sweet.

Stress-ed Up-ped

2008-05-22T18:21:00.005+08:00

this blog's not dead.merely hibernating.u know when animals hibernate in winter coz its too cold?well,i'm hibernating coz its too hot,i'm feeling the heat and the fraggin' cl-o's are in 4 days time.3 days =72 hrs - 18 hrs sleep - 15 hrs school - 3 hrs eating time = 36 hrs of study.

i'll let a picture do the talking(adapted from zeken's blog):

And When I Found Myself,
I Realised God Was With Me All Along.

as an afternote:i detest ppl who say one thing and act another.the truth's glaring obvious(to another who bothers with HARD evidence,at least) and i will advise u to start clearing up your OWN mess before it gets out of control.well,we've all taken sides and it sure ain't not on YOUR side of the court.be careful wad u say.one more misstep may leave in caught in the web of lies that u spun.caution...as i mentioned before,i am loyal to those who are loyal to me.and i expect loyalty in return.and be advised that WE are standing on HIS side.

Semester 1 Results

2008-05-16T19:40:00.003+08:00

here's a summary of how i did for my first semester.i did not record the marks,merely the grade,and am thus unable to provide u with raw data.apologies up front if i cause any inconvenience to u.
English:C5
Chinese:C5
A Maths:B3
E Maths:A2
Combined Humans(SS+E.Geog):D7
English Literature:B4
Chemistry:B3
Physics:C6

L1R5=22
Bonus:CCA Points=31(A1)<2>
L1R5 After Discount(o.O)=20-.-'

Sian,unhappy with the results in red.most glad with those in purple.lol my maths tutor told my mum my emaths will get B3/4 and my amaths will get C5/6.proved her WRONG!physics miss C6 by 0.1 mark.chem miss A2 by 0.5 mark.chinese miss B4 by 0.2 mark.SUAY lor.otherwise my L1R5 will be 20(Raw) liao...some niao-ness...i can't believe its 10 more days to CL O-Levels.god it feels like yesterday that we had 50 over days...life used to be great before there was anything called O-Levels -.-'

Thought Of The Day:Life Was Boring Before I Met You.Then Came O-Levels And I Wished I Met You Earlier.Life's Gorgeous!PAP+Me=D

Some Stupid Questionnaire

2008-05-15T16:16:00.002+08:00

got tagged by eileen...answering the quiz now...
1. At wad age do u wish to get married?
25?

2. Wad do u desire most now?
Brain-8A1s,Body-6 Pecs,Spirit-PAP!

3. Who is e person u trust most?
kang kiat

4. Do u think u have enough confidence?
DUH!

5. Wad dream would u want to come true the most?
8A1s and PAP!

6. Are u satisfied with urself?
With what thing?

7. Wad are u most afraid to lose now?
That new relationship

8. Do u believe in eternal love?
YES.

9. Have u broken someone's heart to the point that he/she wants to commit suicide?
o.O that makes me a MURDERER-.-'

10.Wad do u like most about urself?
Laughter and Confidence

11. Wad qualities do u expect in ur other half?
Got Feelings For Each Other,Sense Of Humor,Kind And Smart

12. Wad feeling do u hate the most?
Fear

13. Do u cherish every single friendship of urs?
DUH!

14. Do you believe in god?
I think so...yes

15. Wad do u think is the most important in ur life?
Friends

16. Who do u hope to be always there for u?
PAP!

17. Wad do u regret most in ur life now?
SMS-ing some mushroom

18. Wad kind of friend do u hope to be in ur friends' eyes?
The BEST kind la DUH...

19. Wad are u doing now?
I Am Ensuring That I Don't Die Of Frustration With This Dumb Thing...

20. Wad is ur greatest fear?
Losing My Loved Ones

Destiny's Choice:
Angeline
Jocelyn
Ptq
Wei Jie
Brendon
Kang Kiat
Mei Zhen
Renee